Doggie_lover

2008-02-02T23:41:00.000+08:00

PRCP no more! I have passed and will be graduating in May!
Cheers and thank GOD!

Holidays commences from today till April when we officially start work.
Intending to travel to Malaysia, at least I'm able to enjoy myself a little. Haha.

My spectacles are spoilt, need to get them repaired. Currently wearing expired contact lens, oops. If not, there's no other choice. To get a new pair of contact lens is quite wasteful when I don't always wear them.

Chinese New Year is coming, I hope everyone is looking forward to it. As for me, I don't have that festive mood yet. Partially because my mum nags even more as we didn't spring clean the house. Was intending to do that next week.

Still happy that I'm able to pass and graduate! I hope this year's probation period would be a good one! (:

2008-01-05T13:21:00.001+08:00

Haven't been blogging. I realized ever since work starts, I've became lazier.
Life may become a bore when you don't cherish it. After work, you can be real tired and all that is in your mind is sleep, your precious, beauty sleep. When you wake up, it'll be another round of work. And life goes on the same way everyday.
Well, I obviously need some colours in my life. So thanks to those who have been going out with me :)

Went Snow City with "Faithfulness" last Saturday. It was our team captain who suggested. But it ended up with only 4 people. As Sarah was late, she treated us to popcorns. Heh. We sat at the ice-skating ring at Jurong Entertainment Centre while eating popcorns and seeing those kids skate. Headed to Snow City after that. $12 per hour with free boots and jacket.
The area was rather small and there's nothing much other than the big slide where one can sit on the tyre to slide down. Lovin' it! It was -4 degrees there but I heard the ice there aren't real. Because I didn't experience snow before, I can't tell the difference. Heh.
Watched IMAX on Mummies. One thing special about that is that the screen has a shape like a hemisphere. One movie cost $10 for 40minutes, but this is an educational movie.
Explored in Kinetic Garden. My all-time favourite was to play with the wheel. Collect all the water, and wait for that big splash. Heh, this sounds so kiddy. But I'm always amused by that. Oops.
Took some group shots before we left that place. Had an enjoyable time with my group :)

Heard some feedback from some people. Thanks for the encouragement. It was such a relief. But on the other hand, I felt sorry for others. Good for those who understand.

Talked over the phone at the playground last night. Somehow talking on the phone at the playground and at home is different. Though got chased up quite a few times, i simply refused. Oops..

Last but not least, I'm now employed by SGH.

2007-12-09T01:19:00.000+08:00

gosh, cant believe i took 5 hours of nap just now.

my keyboard has a problem, n now i'm using the on-screen keyboard, clicking alphabet by alphabet. i noe it's tedious but it's better than nothing right?

have busy with attachment but enjoying work, it's fulfilling. though taking many cases at 1 time can be tough, it's challenging too, but you'll have to bear lots of responsibilities. my colleagues r nice people, so working with them is fun.
1 thing about shift work is that it's tough finding people to go out with during my off days. cos everyone would be studying or working. sigh.

went to mary's house last saturday. we had dumpling steamboat and it tastes great. enjoyed making the dumplings too, though it may be tiring to knead the dough, shape it etc..., we all had fun. heh.. thanks wendy for the food provided :)

angel is sick, poor thing. take good care of yourself and build up your immunity as the virus attacks your body! get well soon :)

2007-11-18T21:38:00.000+08:00

The rain, just never seems to bring
the joy I feel the same. Everlasting pain of my loss remains

My heart can’t seem to learn to part
the hold you left your mark
all that I dreamed of now it seems so stark

Though I told myself won’t hold my breath
a part of me was dying
there is nothing left for me to do now but give in

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you
I won’t live my life without you

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes
and you know I’d never let you go

The way you left me on the train
I don’t know what to say
I remember everything that day
I can’t believe we’d never dance
Just need one more chance
to share the sunset our one last romance

2007-11-06T19:24:00.000+08:00

SGH PRCP schedule is out.
As expected, I didnt get into the ward I want :(

But why when I always feel down, that person is sure to be able to make me feel better. Not many people can, especially when I always filter in words I wanna hear.

2007-11-04T18:30:00.000+08:00

OT posting just ended. Though I didn't exactly enjoy the posting but I have to admit that it's really an eye opener. Now i can understand how patients feel when they are going for a op. The process etc.. As a student nurse, part of our job is to reassure them and allay their anxiety. Managed to scrub up a case, however, I know I didn't do a good job. But I have to thank my nurse for being so patient with me and coached me. Operation theatre is indeed a cold place to be in. Some surgeries are rather gruesome but I managed to stomach it down and accept the fact. It's human body after all.
Next stop would be A&E posting. I hope I'll do my best. Wondered where will my PRCP be. I hope we work only during the weekdays and none else. I still wanna enjoy my weekends with friends and family. haha.
Wish me luck!

2007-10-27T21:33:00.000+08:00

It's my last week of holidays before PRCP. Met up with Esther on Friday. Ever since she had started working, she has been real busy. So yup, appreciated the time taken off to spend the night with me. Headed to town to her workplace. Her colleague is able to give us 2 free tickets. So yup, watched the show for free. Thanks! And Esther commented that it is our first time in 3 years watching a show with just the 2 of us. Haha, didn't realize.

Esther commented she'll look better when she's on my right. We took a couple of pictures and it was proven. Haha.

While waiting for the show, we decided to try Chicago's steakhouse. The steak they have is fabulous. And their service was prompt and the people are very friendly and outgoing. In addition, their pricing is reasonable. Had the king's serving. They classify them queen, king and royal. And the royal serving was indeed real huge! It's half the size of my keyboard. Was stunned when the table beside us ordered it. Our mouths dropped and drool. Haha.

Here's it. Chicago's sirlion steak. Yummy.

2007-10-21T23:51:00.000+08:00

We went Job Central Career Fair held at Suntec. Then proceed to Pizza Hut for dinner :)

2007-10-21T23:48:00.000+08:00

End of gerontology posting. Gonna miss my friends there :)

2007-10-10T22:45:00.000+08:00

Attachments so far have been real tiring, especially the morning shifts. Time passes so fast, but yet, not as fast as I want it to be. Haha, how contradictory. It is because after my morning shifts, I have to travel to Bishan to teach and back again. Sometimes teaching can be fulfilling, yet at times a test. The test of patience. Everyone has different absorbability, as teachers, we have to teach according to the student's pace. Well, I think my student is a bit slow. As far as I'm concern, he didn't give me too much of a problem. Why did I want to teach in the first place? It's out of passion. Money is just a secondary thing (:
Looking forward to my weekends, because it signifies leisure! Working life can be such a bore, unexciting and routine too. It's a matter of getting used to it.
I want to go for a blade and a game of pool! Weee... Anticipating next weekend. Haha (:

2007-10-10T22:43:00.000+08:00

Went to Little Guilin and Bukit Batok Nature Reserve on the 24th September. They have a picturesque view. It's real calm and peaceful there. Nice place to really sit down and relax.
Little Guilin is the first lake I have ever been to :)

2007-10-07T00:10:00.000+08:00

Went for Mass Casualty Exercise today. It was indeed a fun thing and an eye opener. It was my first time having the feel of a patient. It has always been the case of the role of a nurse and this time, for a change. The overall went rather smoothly. Enjoyed myself there. However, due to time constrain, I didn't get the fully experience the P2's situation. Nonetheless, I have a rough view of how A&E works. While waiting for the batches to be back, Esther and I took photos over the meal.

After the Exercise, we headed down to City Hall for dinner at Fish and Co. . The serving was huge and we both couldn't finish it. And the best bit was when something flew across the table and onto the floor. It was an extremely embarrassing moment. But we both burst into laughter. And I believe the waiter who served us saw because he kept grinning to himself each time he walks pass our table. Opps.. Haha. Anyway, got myself a tank top from Mango :)

Our meal for the day

A closer look...

Worn out

2007-10-06T22:47:00.001+08:00

Some photos of my subgroup

And this is my first photoshop art piece :) Thanks to Christopher who taught me. You are always lending a helping hand.

2007-09-27T00:22:00.001+08:00

5 weeks of holidays are coming to a close! How time flies!
Did enjoy myself with the going outs (:

Went Science Centre today with Rohani. Vivid memories from childhood days of Science Centre was that "Einstein" climbing up the rope. And it is still there. Haha. Well, but got to know some cool stuff. Going there makes me feel like a kid once again.
Watched movie at IMAX. It's a movie on the hurricane of Katrina and the wetlands of New Orleans. Sitting in there reminds me of the spaceship simulator i took in my younger days. Though the seats didn't move but the screen makes it rather real. However, we don't get the 3-D kind of pictures.
Headed down to Jurong Point for dinner. Rohani says though the food doesn't look nice, but the way I eat it makes it look..... YUMMY! Haha. I didn't know that. All I know is that I eat real slow. Opps. Self confession.
It's always nice going out with her =)

The place where all the fun began.

Rohani had left her palm print in Science Centre.

And so had I! =P

I'm in the ocean! Experiencing marine life. =x

Us in a little corner of Science Centre

2007-09-23T19:29:00.000+08:00

My comp is revived!
The speed of my comp now is much much faster, and I really mean it. Gosh, last time it took me 15 minutes or more to log on MSN while now, it's less than 3 minutes. See the tremendous difference? Yeah, and I changed the mouse too. With the sweet touch of baby pink.
Went Parkway yesterday for dinner. Ate BK. It's been ages since I last had a meal in BK. Then decided to walk back home from Parkway. I have never done that before but I wanted to exercise. Went on a stroll home which took me close to one and a half hour to get back. I like slow walks as it would set me thinking about things in life. The past, the present and the future. Took Siglap Park Connector home. Saw families taking their lanterns walking under the moonlit night as Lantern Festival is approaching. Encountered a couple who were quarreling though I couldn't really figure out what were they saying. And it isn't nice to eavesdrop either.
Today's weather is madness. It can be rainy one moment and then sunny another. This kind of weather makes people prone to sickness. I'm already down with occasional bouts of sneezes and sore throats though I have taken a flu jab not long ago. I guess my immunity is down.
So people out there, do take care of your health. And remember to drink at least 8 glasses of water a day! :)

2007-09-18T21:08:00.000+08:00

Met Rohani on Saturday. Met her at City Hall as she originally wanted to get her anniversary present but she had already gotten it before meeting me. Since we were in City Hall, I wanted to visit Precious Thots but it has been replaces by Cards n Such. So went in and took a look. Saw quite a lot of nice little things. But don't intend to buy any.
Then we headed down to Orchard as I have things to buy from there. As we were walking towards Taka, there was this guy who were on the streets giving out flower, and he handed us one. However, it comes with a message "Promote safe sex". And I've gotten a lollipop too. Wow, free things along Orchard Road. Haha.
Bought some presents for friends. And yes, I've spent more than a hundred dollars on them. =X But it's worth the money. Rohani commented that she should be the one spending more, but in the end it was the other way round. She had 3 $10 Taka departmental store vouchers and wanted to spend it. We walked through the gifts section and found nothing we like. Then I complained being hungry, we went downstairs to take a look at the food and realize we can use the vouchers there too! We decided to purchase mooncakes since it's the mooncake season. Then went over to Cookieman to buy cookies. We sample a few. Rohani likes the chocolate chip cookie whereas I prefer the almond. A more unique taste. But it all taste well. And we managed to use up all the vouchers! We shopped till we forgot the timing. Rohani was supposed to meet her bf at AMK hub at 4.15pm but we were still in Orchard at 4.30pm and i reckoned that her bf was mad at her. Opps, I'm at fault too. He went home knowing that she's still in Orchard and will meet her much later.
So we sat outside Taka and ate the things we've bought!

Us along Orchard Road

The flower we received

That's Rohani!

2007-09-18T20:45:00.001+08:00

To my fellow NR0510:

Pictures taken before our parting cry. May all of us have a happy attachment and holidays before our PRCP! See you all during graduation day! :)

Last day gifts

We are year 3 now!

My fellow classmate cum sister-in-Christ

NR0510 fellow classmates

Us with Ms Kumari

Ms Tan, Jin Fang and I

2007-09-08T02:49:00.001+08:00

In a twinkling of an eye, 2 weeks of holidays have soon past.
Have been going out almost everyday. Busy..
Still have lots of things to achieve during this holidays.
And I believe it would soon be my last golden holidays before work actually begins!
Hopefully everything would turn out well for attachments.

2007-08-28T17:11:00.001+08:00

Taken on the eve of national day. Our 2nd last day of school :(

Our school do have lots of fountains. Every one step, you'll see one. When entering, when exiting the school, there's already one. That's why, in Year 1, whenever my friends and I step into the school, we would always yearn to swim. And there was once we saw a couple came to NYP to take their wedding photos =X
To my friends out there! May we remain friends for a life time, experiencing the up and down side of life, we will still stay by one another's side :)

2007-08-27T22:10:00.000+08:00

Exams are over. I'm not going to touch my books for the next few weeks.
Let's embrace our holidays!
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My long waited holidays finally arrived!
And this would be my last time enjoying school holidays before work starts.

2007-08-08T12:52:00.000+08:00

You Are An ESFJ

The Caregiver

You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first.
A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change.
You love being in groups - whether you're helping people or working on a project.
You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people.

In love, you value harmony and mutual understanding.
You will apologize or give someone the benefit of the doubt, if it means getting over a fight sooner.

At work, you are good at building relationships and connecting with people.
You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher.

How you see yourself: Organized, dependable, co-operative

When other people don't get you, they see you as: Opinionated, critical, and know-it-all

What's" Your Personality Type?

2007-07-31T14:49:00.000+08:00

Taken to mark the end of our FYP. At least it's over once we have handed in our 1500 words essay. Thanks to Christopher for designing the webpage for us. Your assistance is deeply appreciated. Many thanks to one and all who contributed in our project :)

2007-07-30T01:52:00.001+08:00

Didn't do it too nicely. Rushing for time too. But it's something from the bottom of my heart :)

2007-07-30T01:40:00.000+08:00

Love my Snuffles :)

What more do I have to say? *Grins*
:)

2007-07-30T01:18:00.000+08:00

This post is a bit back dated. Nonetheless, shall still post it.

Here are the things I've got for my birthday. Thanks to those who gave :)

1. Handphone key chain
2. Dog soft toy
3. Toy bear
4. Roxy slippers
5. Anna Sui's wallet
6. Red Topshop shirt
7. Necklace

Last but not least...

Some were not in the picture. Such as the lovely cards I got from Judy, bought from Seoul. A necklace from Ting Ting :)
And a birthday treat :D

Thanks everyone!

Jurong East Swimming Complex

2007-07-29T16:47:00.000+08:00

Went to Jurong East Swimming Complex. Had fun time swimming there. Though it was a weekend, the pools weren't that crowded. However, the place was under renovation.

Don't the backdrop look a bit like we're in a cave? ;)

2007-07-19T13:11:00.000+08:00

Busy week. Had one skill test on Monday, theory test yesterday and one more skill test tomorrow.

The skill test on Monday was rather okay as I am more or less confident. But opps, I was a little careless. I did verbalize writing down the date and time, the initials and signature of the staff, however, when on the chart, I forgot to do it.

The theory test yesterday was a killer. Most of us were complaining after the paper. My hopes of maintaining a good GPA flew away :( And I didn't complete the paper on time, plus I realized most of the questions isn't just theory based, it requires lots of thinking. Bleah. I hope tomorrow's skill test can pull my results up. *Prays*

Anyway, that also explained why I was quiet over dinner yesterday. And on top of that, was exhausted as I had little sleep.

Looking forward to after exams! Why? Because we're going to have our holidays! Weee... I'm determined to travel. Yes I am! =x 1st break week would be going to Mei Di's place in Malaysia to stay. Yun Fei asked me to accompany her back to China, and she's inviting me to her place to stay too! Will help her farm, cook, do household chores etc.. If I'm going there, I would definitely experience the good-old agricultural days. Haha. Since young, I've wondered what kind of life farmers lead, even if you read those in books it can never be compared to first hand experience.

Daddy asked me which country would I prefer a couple of days back. He gave me a choice between China and Australia. Since young, my sister and I yearn to pay Australia a visit. So I gave him an answer without hesitation, Australia. He said he would take us there next year! We're still deciding which places to visit. Perth? Sydney? I'm fine with both, all I bother is to ride on a horse and have good sceneries! Heh.

Yesterday's emotions are all drained away because the thought of travelling overseas makes me excited! But that is if I managed to save up that amount of money to travel. *anticipation* haha.

2007-07-13T10:06:00.000+08:00

Had turned one year older now. A year older, a year better? I really hope so.

Thanks for the many well wishes I've received. Deeply appreciated. Not forgetting those presents I've received too :) Compared to the past few years, I've been more blessed with presents this year. Thanks everyone.

Guess this year is somewhat similar to the previous years. That aura is still present. I thought things would have changed but it didn't. The same way I felt last year happened again.

Have been feeling rather confused lately. I aren't sure which decision to make, thus ending up feeling so vexed. The closer friends would know what i meant. Overwhelmed with a mixture of emotions. July is just not the month.

Was able to clarify matters with her last night. Alright, it's not really a misunderstanding. But at least I've managed to speak words that came right from the bottom of my heart. I want her to know how i feel and hope it doesn't happen again. I don't want to lose another, or want myself to end up being hurt. Relationships are just so fragile. So cherish the ones who you have now, tell them that you care.

So to all my friends out there, I care :)

Going through so many life experiences made me hurt countless of times. But I know it's part and parcel of life. Learning from past experiences and making a better tommorrow. I know who to cherish and I know who are true to me. True friends are indeed hard to find.

I love my sweeties

*hugs*

2007-07-02T14:51:00.000+08:00

The cycle begins again. I'll have to face it alone. Shall remind myself again.. Time flies :)

Je suis absent vous.

2007-06-28T14:17:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I dunno why am I so pissed. Probably I'm being too sensitive. Bleah. I know... "Anger is Danger..." Sigh..

Managed to catch up with Div and Fei Fan on their birthdays.

Was updated by Div about his life stories. I feel sad for you. May the LORD make the decision for you. Meanwhile, continue to seek GOD and ask HIM to guide you :)
Fei Fan was commenting that he missed us so. Haha, so I suggested an outing. But thanks to my suggestion, I have to plan it all. Look at my huge pile of projects awaiting me. Nevermind, it's a rare occasion. Was thinking of playing badminton. Anyone knows of any cheap badminton courts? Preferably somewhere central. If you know, leave me a tag k? Thanks.

Presentations are due next week. We have lots to complete. Met Ms Tan for consultation. As a leader, I'm already quite lost, guess my members too. Oh well. Now we know what needas to be done. Better get it ready soon. Unfortunately, I can't understand while the files I saved in my thumbdrive cant be opened. At first I thought it's my thumbdrive's fault. Apparently it happens to Tica's thumbdrive too. Hers is our one and only backup. If hers fails, I guess we have to redo... Please no...

Gotta run. Will update again.

2007-06-25T15:10:00.000+08:00

I've got a secret. And I believe those who are close to me knows it already :)

This soon marks the end of our 2 weeks of holidays. Didn't really do much. Spend most of the time going out with friends and doing project. Gosh, I so hate project. But since this is our final year, shall just give it a best shot.

Feeling more bonded together with my church youths. Been spending lots of time together during the holidays. (:
Had VBS. Went out together on the last day of VBS. Ate lunch at Changi Village then proceed to Shaun's place for a time of board games. Just realised that Sarah Tan loves keeping board games. Heard from another youth, he said, nowadays many youths hardly play board games anymore and was surprised that we are still playing it. After playing, we went over to Blk 85, Bedok for dinner. We ordered stingray, kway teow, satay, hokkien mee, rice balls etc.. Didn't eat to my fill but nonetheless, dinner was great! Met up with Saleha, as she lives so near the market. She is crappy as ever.
Another YF outing on Saturday. Our plan was to cycle and play ball games over at Pasir Ris Park. The weather wasn't too bad, at least we managed to go ahead with our plans. A few of them wanted to go canoeing. Guess that would be a good idea for future outings :) Provided someone can save me in case the boat capsized since I can't swim :( Anyway, cycled almost the entire Pasir Ris Park and concluded that this park is real small. But it's much quieter and more things to explore compared to East Coast Park. Shall fly a kite some day. Havent done that for all my life. Haha. Played captain's ball. So tiring. Probably cause I lack in stamina. We rested and continued with our games part 2. We played "soccer". But this soccer is different, it has to accomodate both girls and guys. We divided the place into 3 segments. The centre segment is where all the guys supposed to be. Then the other 2 would be the goal of each teams. I was the goalkeeper, but was outnumbered. The opponent has 2 strikers. Grace was trying every means and ways to distract me from looking at the ball, and she was successful a few times. While waiting for the ball to arrive at our segment, the 3 of us were acting crazy. Forming A-Z with our hands and body and also, writing it using our butts. We were sooo lame. Haha. Fun bunch of people ya? Can act crazy together! =X Went over to Shaun's residence to have BBQ. This time is all prepared. So we saved time cooking and preparing. Thanks for the sumptuous meal. Played games over at his place. We played the polar bear game. Played it before at Kevin's place though, so this game wasn't a stranger to me. Quite fun but can be confusing too. After having so much fun outside the entire day, Shaun offered to send us home. First time sitting in the car he drives. But he sure pass with flying colours. He controls everything so well. Haha.

Now back to school. Study mood again. Issac Newton isn't exactly right. I have a big inertia though I'm small-sized. So reluctant to touch my books once again. Looking that big pile of books, simply destroy your mood to study. So exhausted working on my project last night. *Yawns*

And bad news, the file i saved in my thumb drive cant seem to open. Oh no!! Why does things always have to happen last minute? Haiz.. Hoepfully Tica has a back up. If not, I'll be so dead...

Happy birthday to Judy! Thanks for being so thoughtful, encouraging and so patient towards us :)
Happy birthday to Div and Fei Fan in advance! May we all still keep in touch! :)

2007-06-14T22:28:00.000+08:00

Weeee.. My friend retrieved my thumb drive for me!! Thanks thanks. He can testify how many thanks I've said. haha. Project information still intact, nothing is lost. *Happy*

VBS today. Lead the kids in singspiration. I saw Sarah Tan. One of my favourite children. I'm sure she will grow up to be a very pretty girl. Love her eyes. Real nice eyes. And her hair. Haha, so soft, smooth and silky. Sounds like I'm advertising her. Nono, haha.. Her shyness to strangers is just so lovable. When she gets to know you better, she will cling on to you like a glue. haha. Sean, her brother, and her are a pair of sweet children. She was like "korkor...", tugging on his shirt. Sean opened his arms and carried her. So cute. Opps, sounds like I'm in love with her =P
Games at VBS went on quite smoothly. We managed to come up with a few games. but I believe it can further be improved. Planning games for the little ones can be quite a challenge as you don't know if they will find it tough to comprehend. Overall, they had quite a lot of fun. They love the blindfold game the most. Kept asking for more when the time was up. Haha.

Going to celebrate Jin Fang's birthday tomorrow :)
Next in line, would be mine. Wonder how would it be like this year.

2007-06-13T23:34:00.000+08:00

Why am I so careless? Haiz. To think that what I told Shiqa the other day, I must use that to comfort myself :( Wanna know what had happened? I forgot to remove my thumbdrive from the school computer. How forgetful and careless I am!! So mad at myself. The project slides are almost done and this happens. How am I going to explain to my group members when the work in my thumb drive are the only copy we have. We do not have a back up! Haiz. Called up some people up to help in finding. Hopefully one of them would be able to find it. But through the calling, I found out who are willing to go out of their way to help someone. Thanks to that someone :) Really hoped he would be able to find it. *Prays* With that I would save all the hassle re-doing everything again. Went to Sentosa yesterday. Had quite a bit of tan. Strolled along the beaches, tried luge and skyride, hiked through Dragon's trail, sight-seeing at Southernmost point of Asia continent and visited Merlion's walk. Love those waterfalls :) Had quite a lot of fun though. Would upload some pictures when I have them.

2007-06-06T22:31:00.000+08:00

And so, church mates left for church camp whereas I am still stranded in this island drained by the numerous projects to be completed.

I wanna go for church camp! I wanna go for church camp! I wanna go for church camp! I wanna go for church camp! I wanna go for church camp! I wanna go for church camp! I wanna go for church camp! I wanna go for church camp! I wanna go for church camp! I wanna go for church camp! I wanna go for church camp!I wanna go for church camp!I wanna go for church camp!I wanna go for church camp! I wanna go for church camp! I wanna go for church camp! I wanna go for church camp! I wanna go for church camp! I wanna go for church camp! I wanna go for church camp!I wanna go for church camp!I wanna go for church camp!I wanna go for church camp! I wanna go for church camp! I wanna go for church camp!

I feel so left out, my friends are having their golden holidays now, enjoying their lives to full contentment. Unfortunately, year 3 students wouldn't have such luxury.
One more week to holidays. I'm truly hoping for my precious holidays to arrive. Getting sick of school day by day. The urge of skipping school is there, however, self-discipline over ruled it.
I'm looking forward to my Sentosa trip. Have a few places in mind to visit and play :)
The thought of Sentosa makes me anticipate the tomorrow that's coming. haha. Can't wait. Weee...

Esplanade, a place full of fond memories. Thanks for making my day. Though you didn't really fulfill my request, I'm still satisfied with whatever I have. Thank you :)

2007-06-03T23:46:00.000+08:00

I didnt know I was the one who made you feel that way.
I really apologize.
People around you told you to give up,
Yet, you stood firm to your decision,
Guess you are just persevering to the end
If I had known,
I wouldn't have treated you that way
But I couldn't simply leave you out either.
Though I was truly aware of what's going on,
I still pretend to be oblivious.
Maybe I was wrong on that part.
But I do drop ocassional hints
Yet you still refuse to accept.
What can I do to change how you feel?
I wonder..
Please enlighten me.

This week would be an awfully long week :(
Hope it passes real fast.
Church mates would be going for church camp, and I'll be missing all the fun :(
If only there isn't school..
So nice to get a revival once again. haha.
Miss church camps.

Had a few outings with the YF the past week. Proud of the organizer =P
Visited the zoo. After so many years. Got to catch some shows despite the rainy weather. We were mostly travelling round under umbrellas. Haha. Wrong time, wrong day. Had fun nonetheless.
Went Escape with group mates. Not a very good turnout. But still happy :) Headed to Shaun's place for a game of tennis. Then to Katong for dinner. "Your cough is getting bad..." Opps. Haha. But I drank lots of water. Had headache too. But all is gone now :)

Je suis absent vous

2007-05-30T13:48:00.000+08:00

Some people are just fake. They may appear nice, friendly, caring, helpful to you on the surface, but deep down, they are so cunning. Lying over things that aren't true at all, or rather, too true to believe, hoping to gain more contacts by doing these. It's of no use I say, no use. Please stop telling me those cock and bull stories and make me fall into your trap.

I couldn't imagine that I once actually believed whatever you said. Maybe I'm just a simple-minded, gullible person. People warned me not to believe everything that you said, but I choose to trust you, because I find that you have no reason to lie to me. Lies, lies, and that you told me are lies. I have finally woke up from my senses.

Yet now, I was just curious about what was being said, you just kept the information to yourself and even asked others not to tell me. Thanks. I have finally seen through you. You are just so self-centred. What a nice friend are you!

Why does all these always happen to me? It's so hard to put your trust into someone. Fortunately I do have a handful of trustworthy friends that I know I can count on. All are friends, but how many are seriously true to you? Deep down, really want to build a lasting friendship with you?

2007-05-21T00:00:00.000+08:00

Everything seems so messed up. But I've come to know, that one day, it will happen. I really don't wish or look forward to the week ahead. Because anticipating that means that that day will happen much sooner. I'm such a coward. Disappointed in myself but yet, couldn't help it. Someone just tell me how to react without hurting the other party please.
Heard a story a friend just shared to me. There's a saying, "It's never too late..." However, this statement is not really true. He wanted to confess his love for that girl, but unfortunately, the girl passed away soon after. It really saddens one's heart.. Some things are not meant to wait.

Managed to meet up with god grandpa after so many years. Thanks for the treat! Had a good time the other day (:
Birthday greetings to Angel! Sweetest birthday? Happy for you! (:
How I wished I had one too..
Projects, projects and more projects. Sometimes I think I'm not doing enough. Probably I'm expecting too much, or expecting too little that I'm not doing what I'm supposed to do. Wish for the best for ICAs.

2007-05-12T21:47:00.000+08:00

My group came over to my place to do up the notice board. love the fellowship with them. Really like the bonding between like-minded brethren.
Blest be the tie that bind,
Our hearts in Christian love!
The fellowship of kindred minds,
Is like to that above.

Here is our final product
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Here are some of our close up shots..

2007-05-11T14:53:00.000+08:00

The weekends are here! Was extremely busy during the week. Friends can testify that.
Going to train 2.4km later. Guess my stamina is deteriorating. NAPFA is just a week away. Boo!
Following that, I will be going to Vivo. Havent been there for a few months already. The last time was with Angel? *memories*
Group members will be coming over to my place to do up the board tomorrow! Wee, so excited. Haha. I have been looking forward to that during the week. Can't wait :)

2007-05-08T14:41:00.000+08:00

It's only week 4 and yet tests are already filling up our busy schdules.
One down and 2 more tests to go for the week.
Haven't really prepare for my 2nd skill and theory paper yet.
And I am real busy this week.
Turned down various appointments already.
Apologies.
Have lots of things to settle.
Worse of all, NAPFA is coming.
Haven't trained either.
Stress is in the air.
Our seniors seriously didn't joke with us when they said year 3 is the most hectic.
Projects, presentations, tests etc..
How I wish I could buy time.

2007-04-26T14:36:00.000+08:00

The "plenteous" projects seems never ending to me.

In the past, our group usually does our project ICA presentation usually 2-3 weeks before it is due.

However, we are already embarking on week 11's project (when it's only week 2 now).

I'm not looking forward to anything except holidays. (Though our 1 month of holidays just ended.)

I really want to travel!

Travel to Australia, to China, to Thailand, to Taiwan. Basically, anywhere. I just can't wait to get out of Singapore.

Not that I dislike being in Singapore.

But because I have been encaged for more than a decade.

I want to spread my wings and fly...

Hani and I were supposed to go jogging today.

However, both of us want to be a little laid back. heh.

Must start training for NAPFA soon.

E Plaza is freezing cold.

Seems like we are living in North Pole when the weather outside looks like a Sahara Dessert.

Guess NYP is too rich, they don't bother about saving the electrical bills anymore.

And these credit must go to...

*Drumrolls*

.....

....

...

Nursing students.

Without us,

How could they have earned so much money.

*Laughs*

And this temperature is somewhat hinting me

That I should make a move soon.

2007-04-19T13:06:00.000+08:00

The chapter of Year 3 life begins.

Schedule now is so packed with studies. We have to complete 2 semesters into one because we will be going for clinical placement next semester. Heard that it will be 22 weeks. Congrats to us. 3 weeks of attachment can already be quite a torture. Imagine, it's 7 times more.. Gosh. I really wouldn't want to think of it. Projects, tutorials, presentations, CBL, SDL and many more. Hopefully my GPA doesn't drop any further. But I can tell many of us are working hard now. Quite surprising at times huh? =P

I was wondering about my future, which path should I head to? Just continue being a staff nurse as long as possible? Or maybe divert to being a lecturer or a nurse manager/clinican/educator. Once, a friend told me that I should become a lecturer. And another time, my staff nurse said my theory was good. However, many cant forsee me being in that position to teach. Probably it's because I may not be able to handle the big group of them. Anyway, who knows in the end, I may not be able to even take those degree courses due to my incapability. *laughs*

Have been juggling time for my student and studies. And now, trying to put training for NAPFA in it too. Heard that NAPFA is 4 weeks away, and i believe my stamina is no where near bronze. Opps.

Quarrels, quarrels and more quarrels. Hah. Sometimes I love it, and other times, I detest it. It really depends on who is the opponent. Most of the time, I end up giving in. Bleah. But having quarrels make me realize who is true and who is not. Haha. Guess, it's only God and I who knows it.

Hey dummy dumb dumb, I know you would be reading this one day. Thanks for being so nice to me. You even offered to let me vent my anger on you. Silly, you shouldn't, though it would be nice. =X Haha.. But I would be so evil if I really did. Next time just buy a punching bag for me will do ya? Then you don't have to sacrifice yourself anymore =P

2007-04-15T22:47:00.000+08:00

Lots of things going on in my heart and brain..
Sigh..
So many dilemmas, so many decision.
Guess this what people call --- Life.

2007-04-01T23:38:00.000+08:00

Suddenly feel the urge to blog.
To that someone: "You are not forgotten no matter how busy I may seem to be :) " Well in fact, I don't forget friends that are close to me though we may not be talking much at times. Nonetheless, will be praying for you to get into the course you longed for.
Have quite a number of things to do before term starts. Gosh, I guess I won't have enough time for all of that. Sigh. Thanks to my poor time management.
Looking forward to the youth retreat this Friday till Sunday. Cause' I would be able to fellowship with like-minded brethren again. I like the feeling of bondedness. It just makes you feel so...-welcomed.
Dr Tow spake today. It's been quite a while since I last heard him preached. He mentioned about obstetric. Reminds me of my upcoming obstetric posting. Sigh, I hope I won't be missing 2 days of attachment. Really! I wanna have a feel of how delivery feels like, how to feed and bathe a baby, how O & G runs etc... But SHS Orientation. If only I am able to split myself into 2!
Sammie is leaving to Myanmar tomorrow. Have a safe and fruitful journey. She's going for a mission trip with her cell group. She seems devoted to serve the LORD. Happy for her :)
Good Friday is round the corner. It is a day when Christians are reminded of Jesus' suffering and death on the cross. Why should Christ die on the Cross to save us from sins when HE can choose not to? It was love, God's wondrous love for me.

Why did Jesus give up heaven's glory
For this world of sin and misery?
Why did Jesus suffer in the garden,
Drain the bitter cup of agony?
Why did Jesus stand in Pilate's judgement hall,
Wear that cruel crown of thorns so patiently?
Why did Jesus give His life to save me?
It was love, God's wondrous love for me.

Why does Jesus lift me when I stumble,
Take my hand whene'er I do astray?
Give me strength I need for each tomorrow,
Grace to face the trials of the day?
Why does Jesus share the load I cannot bear,
Fill my soul with peace and joy beyond degree?
And why does He watch o'er me and keep me?
It was love, God's wondrous love for me.

Indeed, how amazing to such an extent can our LORD love us that HE suffered, bled and died for us. And behold, HE is risen on the third day!
"For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life." John 3:16

2007-03-30T13:04:00.000+08:00

"Wo ke yi, pei ni qu kan xing xing, bu yong zai duo shou ni, wo jiu yao he ni zai yi qi.." Nice song. Had been repeatedly played in my mind for countless of times. Makes me yearn to go stargazing.
"Star light, star bright, first star i see tonight. Wish I may, wish i might, have a wish I wish tonight.."
*Starry*

2007-03-28T14:15:00.000+08:00

Time passes so fast and we're already in our 2nd last week of holiday.
Havent got a reply from Mr Syed regarding the SHS Orientation. Oh wells.. haha.. I hope we will be excused! =P
Dad's birthday: Our family went out for lunch/ high tea. The choices there weren't many, but enough to fill up stomachs to the brim. My youngest sister was supposed to be paying as she just started work, but my dad ended up paying. Hah. After lunch, we went for a car ride to Ngee Ann Poly. My youngest sister is about the enter that poly, so my dad drove her to see the bus route. And it was a long journey. Gosh. Headed down to Botanical Gardens.. Passed by Sixth Avenue, the one that Angel mentioned it to me before. We were there rather late in the evening, thus, didnt catch much before the sky darkens. We managed to take some shots though. Visited Grandma in the Home. She looks just the same :) After being out the whole day, got home to help my sister take pictures of her. *ahems* Hah :D
Made new friends over the past week. Glad to know them. Especially Keith. He's really nice towards us. *Guilty* But whatever it is, I've decided and that's final =)
After eating so many buffets over the past few weeks, I'm starting to feel guilty. So i went swimming, jacuzzi, sauna and gym yesterday at my neighbour's condo. Coolio! Haha.. But i haven't had much food yesterday before exercising, which makes me kinda worn out. But i believe i lost some calories. *Grins*
Going out with Esther later.. Yay~

2007-03-18T23:03:00.000+08:00

Holidays are here!
-Shouts of joy-

Supposed to be blogging as often as I should, but my internet connection is always giving us problems. Plus there is always someone who snatches the computer from me. (That's one disadvantage of not having a personal computer.)

Sometimes i don't know if some people are just putting an act in front of me. Some may say they are alright, but maybe deep down, feeling so hurt. Well, I just hope friends who are feeling down, will feel comforted somehow.

I admire others for their closeness between their friendship. It's not easy to maintain or to build up one. Nonetheless, we have to thank God for them.
Trying to come up with ideas to gel friendships up. Maybe readers can supply me with some suggestions by tagging?
=P
Deeply appreciated

SHS Orientation is a few weeks away. Unfortunately, it clashes with my posting. Hope I'm able to get an excuse letter.
Simply love the ambience during orientations. And the times when all of us join together in one accord, singing our "school song" with gusto :)
Miss those times.
However, it's soon back again! =P

Esther: May the LORD guide you in making decisions for the future =)

2007-03-08T23:43:00.000+08:00

2007-03-07T23:35:00.000+08:00

Apologies for not blogging for almost month now.
Have been busy studying for exams during the chinese new year season. And the modem failed to work. Thus, couldn't log on to the net. Thank God it is well now.
Attachment starts soon after exams ended. This posting isn't something very great, though i looked forward to this posting in the past. Somehow i felt that the staff may be a little bias, but i can understand why. Conducting activities daily for the clients can be quite fun. To me, it is quite a challenge to gather all of their attention. I think the clients are very caring people. They helped one another, but sadly, are ostracized by the society. There were some disagreements between our lecturers, resulting in a little confusion. Wasn't exactly satisfied with this posting. And i can predict i won't do well.
Keeping Kel's mum and Issac in prayers. Kel's mum's health wasn't too good. But thankfully, she was discharged yesterday. Thank God there wasn't any abnormalities seen in the scope. And for Issac, though I dun personally know him, i think he needs lots of encouragement. Like one of my client said, "Life is to live on..."

2007-02-12T13:39:00.000+08:00

Exams are coming. And so is Chinese New Year.

To those who are in the midst of their exams/ test:
All the best! Jia you!

And to all my Chinese friends:
Blessed Chinese New Year! (:

2007-02-05T14:53:00.000+08:00

Just came back from meeting Bernie. Bernie is pregnant! So happy for her. She's looking forward to having an addition to the family. *laughs* Just that financial-wise may face a little problem. And she's deciding to hire a "maid" to look after the newborn. Haha. She was supposed to go for work today, but due to the morning sickness, she took a day off and stayed at home to rest. And I heard from Bernie that Marilyn is pregnant too! Woots~ Our topic revolved around pregnancy and women stuff. Heh. So nice to catch up with her :)
Sent Bernie home, didnt want her to faint halfway or something.

"Where are you going?"
"Sending you home."
"I'm fine, really."
"Nah, I dun want to write a RMS report.."

*chuckles*

Talked to Bernie for a while before making a move because Jeryl wants me to be back -.-

Ikea? Haha, hope to go there soon.. Havent been there for quite some time already (:

Shall start a bit of work today. Hope i'll be able to manage it.

2007-02-04T21:05:00.000+08:00

Eyes
Like a sunrise
Like a rainfall
Down my soul
And I wonder
I wonder why you look at me like that
What you're thinking
What's behind
Don't tell me
But it feels like love

I'm gonna take this moment
And make it last forever
I'm gonna give my heart away
And pray we'll stay together
Cause you're the one good reason
You're the only girl that I need
Cause you're more beautiful than I have ever seen
I'm gonna take this night
And make it Evergreen

Touch
Like a angel
Like velvet to my skin
And I wonder
Wonder why you wanna stay the night
What you're dreaming
What's behind
Don't tell me
But it feels like love

I'm gonna take this moment
And make it last forever
I'm gonna give my heart away
And pray we'll stay together
Cause you're the one good reason
You're the only girl that I need
Cause you're more beautiful than I have ever seen
I'm gonna take this night
And make it Evergreen

(Don't tell me
But it feels like love)

I'm gonna take this moment
And make it last forever
I'm gonna give my heart away
And pray we'll stay together
Cause you're the one good reason
You're the only girl that I need
Cause you're more beautiful than I have ever seen
I'm gonna take this night
And make it Evergreen

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Research ICA was demoralizing. The lecturer couldn't even tell us if we passed or fail.But i realized that it's not only our class that faces it, Jeremy's too. Worse of all, I've heard that we'll be having another research ICA (individual) in year 3!
Happy birthday Bernie! Going to meet up with her tomorrow before her work starts. Could meet up with her because we don't have any lessons tomorrow. Yay~ But have to be back to school on Tuesday -.-
Chinese New Year is arriving! But I'm so not looking forward to it. The festive period means, studying for exams. Everyone would be in their festive mood but we, have to be buried in our books. Left with less than 2 weeks now :(
Been rather happy recently. Happy that Esther Goh is happy too! Haha. Cheers to both of us! May we continue to stay this way ya? (:

2007-02-01T01:00:00.000+08:00

Back from trip! Got myself some clothes, shoes and a bag. *smiles* But, still need somemore. Haha. Guessed almost all girls' shopping list will never end.
Yun Fei and Jin Fang were asking what do i need from China. Haha, so nice of them. But what i need, they couldn't get it too, cause they don't know my taste. Haha.
Met up with Kel a couple of days back. Talked about his work, his enlistment etc.. Thanks for the treat pal! Haha.. Next time when i start to work, i shall treat you in return :D
Sponsorship. Wanna get sponsorship. However, doubt the hospitals would allow any year 2s or 3s to sign up for bond. Must find a way to support myself in case I couldn't work as a nurse. Bleah.
Getting sick i guess. Feeling so chilly recently, and a mild malasie. Weather? Hopefully, it gets better. If only... (Joline, you must be dreaming!)
Research methods ICA later. The last ICA for the whole semester! Hopefully we get it done well, and that lecturer would be satisfied with it. Research is one of the most tough ICA we ever faced. We didnt know what to do. It's supposed to be a proposal. But it seems like we merely copy and paste every chunk from the article we found. Sounds bad. Opps. I think other groups were quite similar. So long as we manage to scrap through would be fine. Haha. Aren't aiming much.

2007-01-27T01:33:00.000+08:00

Will be going for a short trip to Malacca over the weekends. Take care people! :)

2007-01-24T19:43:00.000+08:00

One project down. And one more to go. Wished for all projects to cease.
Was reminded that this is our last semester taking bio :( Bio is interesting, learnt so much from it. Other modules will then set in. Psychology isn't as easy as i thought. Operation theatre? Accident and Emergency?
Looking forward to Friday's BBQ. It's not the BBQ that makes me look forward to. It's her b'day. Haha :) Surprises and more surprises. This is the first time I take so much effort to plan such things for a friend. Honoured? Heh =P

2007-01-22T00:39:00.000+08:00

The stress period is here! The cause of it all, is still us. So I won't blame it on anyone, but just me, myself and I.
Projects. I really had enough of it.
Wasn't in my best mood lately. Mind is too preoccupied. And if I happen to upset anyone of you, I apologise.
"Are you ok?"
"hmm, ya."
"Sure?"
"hmm, what if i say no?"
"Then say it out."
"nah, i'm ok."

Deep down in my heart i wanted to share.. But i think i shouldn't. I have nothing to ask for, and I don't have any right to. I should be more considerate. Others are not feeling happy either, why should I bombard my feelings to them.
Sigh. 2007 didnt start off well.

2007-01-19T21:14:00.000+08:00

Yay, end of the busy week. Actually, studying can be fun, and sometimes a torture, haha.
Presentation on Tuesday went real well. Glad that it's over. There's one next week and another, the week after. We're so last minute. Hah.
Semestral exam dates are out. It's just a month away. Dislike the schedule. Oh well, just clashes with Chinese New Year. Looks like I couldn't really enjoy the festive season.
Looking forward to holidays. Can meet up with my god grand dad! Havent meet him for at least 2 years already. The only time we talked is during his birthdays. haha.
Kel is back from Hong Kong. Meeting up soon? Hopefully. Promised each other since dunno when. haha.
Kinda excited about tomorrow :)

2007-01-11T18:37:00.000+08:00

2007 started off very hectic for me. With tests, projects and other assignments that is ahead. Next week alone has 2 tests and a graded presentation. Gosh. Have been busy this week, so that explains why i don't blog so often now. Fortunately, I've completed the printing of invitation cards :D
Esther and I were discussing about the role play for our project past midnight ytd, her stories are always very interesting (and a lil' dramatic too). Hard work! And I realised how much I miss writing stories. Haha.
I'm going home late from school these few days. Been working on projects. Sigh. Can see lots of work coming till the end of the semester. -perseverance-
Esther's BTT tmr. *Wishing her luck* Jiayou~ :)

2007-01-06T01:15:00.000+08:00

One week have just passed.
Went for Pot Bless on Monday at Dn Terence's. Bumped into Megan. Had lots of food, prepared by loving hands. Yummy.
2nd Jan, my family is supposed to land around 3+, however, the flight was delayed for more than 4hours. Thank God they arrived in Singapore safely. Stayed at home the entire day to study 2057, both theory and lab. Theory was qte ok but made a few errors. Sigh :(
3rd Jan: 1st day of school, 1st "lesson"--> Lab assessment -.- Got one of the weirdest qn, but manage to pass it anyway. hah. The lecturer was very lenient. As usual, having difficulties in understanding bio again. I'm sure most of the lecture group couldn't understand it too. It's not that the lecturer isn't good. I'm partially at fault too, concentration. He should try putting it in simpler terms.
4th Jan: Esther's assessment. Was thinking to wait for them to end then head home. But was having a lil' headache, and Esther kept telling me to go without them, as I'll be the only one travelling the other side of the line. So I left. But halfway through my journey, Esther called. "Mdm Wong didnt let me in for assessment as I was wearing shorts." -.- Mdm Wong is so picky! So i made a detour. When i reached school, Esther was already in the lab. -.- -.- I waited outside the lab with Tingting when Mdm Wong opened the door and asked us to tidy up the bed! -.- "We are not maid chambers." Everyone passed. Happy for them. And I've received Esther's present! :) :)
5th Jan: Let's put proj topic aside. Now, Branda couldn't be bothered with it anymore. It's so not her. -Attitude- Bio is getting more n more tough. Brain, brain, brain. Why is it such a complex organ!? Bleah. I need a tutor. And Esther wants me to tutor her. haha, will, when i get my facts right. Spent a while in Sunplaza. First time being there. It's a real small mall, with nothing much inside. Haha. "It's getting worse, and I'm determine to do something about it..."

2006-12-31T01:37:00.000+08:00

Here are some of the photos we took yesterday. Didnt upload all, because some of the pictures were unclear or we didn't use the flashlight.

2006-12-30T11:34:00.000+08:00

Met up with Mavis friends yesterday. Had a great time bickering with Hanxi. We were obviously joking.
Ate in NYDC. I always thought that NYDC is rather pricey, but it's still ok.
After dinner, we walked down to Esplanade to see if there are any performances or exhibitions. We managed to catch a piano concert performed by NJC piano ensemble. I like the piece composed by Mozart. Colourful and soothing. I'm picturing a fairy flying around from one place to another. haha. We took qte a few pictures in Esplanade too. There is this sculpture exhibition, a production from Telok Kurau Studios. I find it very creative and artistic. He must have spent lots of time making them.
Took a walk along the Esplanade bridge towards the Merlion. Continued taking photographs again. They have line dance performance there too. But out of the many, only one caught our eyes because his actions were very exaggerated.
All of us were back home passed 12. But we had my sister to drive them back :)

Was out with James and Esther today. We went Vivo city. James was late as he went to purchase a new phone. He has been saying that he wanted a new phone ever since the last time i met him till now. Haha, and finally, he got himself one!
So Esther and I walked around aimlessly while waiting for James to arrive. Didnt even shop around as she was cash-strapped.
It was only 2 hours after our original meeting time, that we managed to meet James. In his hands were 2 books. And it's the book that i wanted to buy, but fortunately i didnt as he gave the book to us as Christmas present. Thanks thanks! Really like it. Haha. In it has a beautiful photo and a poem composed by him. How nice :)
We were supposed to decide a venue to eat. Wanted to eat at Marche, but we couldn't find the restaurant. And finally decided on Earl Swenson's. To think that we had walked one big round just to find the shop. We just walked in without knowing the prices and it happens to be quite costly. Nonetheless, we have decided on that, cos' we had walked so much and our stomachs are groaning. Heh. The food there isn't too bad. Had ate to our fill.
Overall, it was a wonderful outing. Glad that we managed to meet up again.

2006-12-29T14:11:00.000+08:00

Dad, mum n my sis left for Vietnam. They wont be home till the 2nd of Jan. Whenever my parents are away, it means that i have to do all the housework, cause both of my two sisters won't want to help. On the other hand, no more naggings.. Hope she's not sneezing now. haha.
Tests and exams are coming. I believe some of my friends' books are unopened. It's the festive season that's why! Mer havent finish copying my notes yet. And Esther have been going out, so am i. And this is the only period i can meet up with my friends before they enter NS or start working. So ya, cherishing it.
Once again, happy birthday to Sammie! 10 years of friendship and counting. Went out yesterday with her and her sec sch mates for lunch and a time for shopping. She bought quite a lot of stuff. And there's this shoe that caught both of our eyes, too bad, it's the last pair and it doesn't seem to be in a good condition. But it's real sweet. Aww... Had a great time shopping though.
Talked to Esther yesterday. Oh gosh, we had a great time laughing away. Come to think of it, it was real silly, but humorous. "Life is never boring with Esther around." We were talking a bit about Mark too. Flashback: One hand covering the wound, another the mouth, and laughed away. Think the only person who knows what i meant is Esther ;P
After seeing Sammie shopped till hearts content, i feel the urge too. The urge to spend. Esther, let's start saving! Hohohoho..
Going out later with my Mavis' friends. Tomorrow, with Angel and Esther. And stayover through the New Year. And the year would come to a close. How fast time flies... Blessed New Year to all! Oh, before i forget, congrats to ZQ on passing his TP and Happy Birthday to Teo Hui!! :)

2006-12-26T22:52:00.000+08:00

Had a busy weekend. Enjoyed it though.
Didnt really do much during Christmas. Spent the day with Shaun's family. Headed down to Marina Square for brunch. Ate at Carl's Junior. Texas toothpick is nice but a lil' spicy. haha. Did a little window shopping with Yu Wei. We went counting the number of dresses we saw. Haha. Had more than 15! Uncle Steven sent us back :) Thanks!
Came home for a nap. Dunno why, it always seems like i havent have enough sleep. Branda says that is because i'm a light sleeper. Agrees, I tend to wake up quite easily.
Stayed at home today. Had a choice to go out, but feeling guilty. Cos i had been going out almost everyday for the past week. Need to stay at home to read up. Sigh.. Why is the school torturing us? Purposely put all the tests and exams during the festive seasons. The timetable is bad enough.. And now, our ICAs.. *Shakes head* 1st day of school, exam. What a good start!
It's raining non-stop. And so many people around me are sick. haha, me too. A lil runny nose. Haiz. Dunno wad's wrong with my immuntiy recently. Have been sick easily. Is either too much glucocorticoids or my immunity is really getting from bad to worse. Sigh.
Going out on Friday to Monday again. Haha.

2006-12-20T20:57:00.000+08:00

Spending so much time outside, hardly even have time for myself. Have been going out every single day without fail, be it rain or shine.

Went out with my subgroup mates to Marina Square. We would always go window-shopping, trying on clothes n take photographs of it. But this time, i didnt bring my camera along. We got to see each other true colours more. The more "wild" part of us. Haha. Had a tough time deciding where to eat for dinner. The final decision was made by Branda who thought of eating BBQ cum steamboat in Marina Bay. Yun Fei was complaining hungry, in the end, she had the smallest appetite. Haha. The workers there are nice towards us. Jin Fang came back to the table with a plate of papaya. She commented that there isn't a lot of fruits. One of the workers heard and ask us what fruits do we want. Then he came back with 2 big plates of papaya and watermelon! Yay~ The indulgence begins! To our surprise, we finished the 2 plates of fruits and ask for more. gosh. Our tummies were filled with so much fruits! Ate till very bloated and headed home. During our meal, Branda had heard something unpleasant from the other table and shared it with us. We really pity those 2 girls, who knows what's ahead of them.

Met Yee Leng and her junior on Tuesday. Nice knowing more friends. Have been introduced to more and more friends recently. Haha. Cool! Went to Popular to do some stationery shopping. Then walked around Parkway. Made a precious moments keychain together with Yee Leng. Dun mind making on for myself. See jewellery again. Gosh, i'm addicted.

Went to Vivo city to get some goodies and had lunch with my sis there. Then headed down to Popular at Singapore Post to continue shopping for stationery. Didnt know that we had so much to buy. Spent more than $80 on it! We carried a big bag of stationeries home. People shop for groceries, we shop for stationery. haha!

Have been trying to reach Esther on her mobile but to no avail. Sigh, have lots of things to tell her. Waiting n waiting..

2006-12-15T15:43:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was the last day of school! Hurray. And we had a 5 hours of break! 5 hours straight!! Most of my classmates weren't present for the mental health lecture. Not worth it anyway. The lecturer dunno how to teach. After lecture, we followed Niz, Tica n Aisah to the stadium. Saw Niz and Tica running, and we cheered for them! LOL. It was indeed a stupid act. Fortunately, no one was around.. We saw the directory which has karaoke lounge, movie theatre etc.. We went around the Sports Hall looking for them, but realized we were in the wrong block. Haha. When we found the place, it states "For Staff Only". Ahh, thanks lah. On our way down to South Canteen, we bought a cup of ice cream. Yummy, yummy.. Then went to South Canteen to eat again. South Canteen has lots of varieties compared to the North. Then from South canteen back to Sports Hall. It's like walking from one end of the school to the other. Good exercise. We also played badminton for an hour. Jin Fang plays quite well. Branda and Yun Fei kept complaining about the lighting, that's why they couln't see the shuttle cork. Saw Jasmine practising her rock climbing there. After a game of badminton, we sat outside the Sports Hall, talking. We played truth or dare. It was very lame and funny lah. Some examples of the dare were, shake hands with 10 people, run to the playground and shout, "I love you all!", stand on the table and sing a song, pole dance, do jumping jacks and shout, "I love _______" etc.. Had a good laugh. Went to take a shower. The school doesnt have heater there, so it was a cool shower. But the weather outside was colder. Headed for lab lesson. Our last lesson before the break starts! Yay~
It's study break now. Which means, study, study n more study. But i'm so not going to do that. It's the festive season! And how can i find myself studying non-stop? haha. Ridiculous! Friends are going abroad, and I'm left in Singapore. Unfair! *sulks* Nvm, Christmas and New Year are coming!! Happy holidays everyone!

2006-12-12T11:19:00.000+08:00

Back from church camp on Sunday night. Learnt qte a bit from the 2nd coming. Thank God that everything ran smoothly and the meals prepared by tender, loving hands. Had lots of fun too and i really enjoyed the fellowship with the youths. Unfortunately, couldn't stayover on Sunday night, cos I've heard the girls had lots of fun. If only, i'm on holidays now.
The week have started, means it's time to get down with our proj. Hate it. Last night, Esther, Marie n I were talking about our sub-group and proj stuff. I guess things wont b better, just hope that we get all these over n done with as soon as possible.
Holidays are coming! Looking forward to it. Cos it means meeting up with my friends again. Especially the JC friends. My family is going abroad, BUT they r leaving my eldest sis and I in Singapore. How fair! Some of my friends are travelling during this 2 weeks holidays. Nvm, should stay home and study for exams. Wad's more it's during the festive season! The school really knows how to arrange our tests, ICAs and exams! Bleah...
Yay, going out later. Esther is joining! Think she'll be the limelight for the day. Haha. Esther, i DON'T owe u anything.. haha.. fair and square! :)

2006-12-06T00:24:00.000+08:00

changed my phone number already. whoever who wants it, msn me online :)

2006-12-04T22:44:00.000+08:00

Kinda lost in bioscience. It's getting more complicated already. Brain, neurons. Sigh. Hope i can catch up soon. Esther wants me to teach her too. Haha, wait till i get it right first. And i cant access to the animations web lah. How to revise? :(
One project done. Mdm Wong is so picky la. Referencing is not wrong can? But she insisted on minusing marks for a space not clearly shown. Hello, when u write down, how do u show a space? Got space also say no space. Then she commented " u should put ':' nearer to the Philadelphia..." Like that also want to comment. Haiz, fine should have printed it out then. Let her minus marks for nothing. So frustrating lah. To think that i spend so much effort in it. Haiz. As long as we pass n dun get a low grade can already.
Youth camp is coming! Looking forward to it. Yay~ Hope everything runs smoothly. *Prays* Have faith! :)
Kelvin jus smsed me to say that he is in his church camp too. Haha.. Hope he enjoys himself. He needs a break anyway..

2006-11-28T12:43:00.000+08:00

sick. caught a bad bout of flu. mdm wong jus said there's this new flu-liked virus that is spreading very rapidly now. did i catch that? gosh. *cough cough*
should i go n meet srjcians on saturday? miss them though. My presence depends on my health and the time we finish printing the camp booklets. i hope the printing doesnt take too long and it wont give us troubles.. *prays*

2006-11-22T00:52:00.000+08:00

I love today's tutorial. Learning qte a number of lessons that is applicable to our daily lives.
Can go out with more friends since A levels are over! Yay.
December is indeed a busy month! Gosh...

To all 1s29:
There'll be a class gathering on the 2nd Dec 2006 to Sentosa. Planning to go to the beach, play ball games, cycle, swim etc.. Meet at HarbourFront MRT stn at 9.30am. Pls leave a tag or sms me if u're coming or not. Thanks. Looking forward to see u all! =)

2006-11-16T14:07:00.000+08:00

Changed my phone to a sony ericsson. Which i think it's slightly better than my nokia phone. Though the memory in the phone is very limited, at least it doesnt hang. And i'm addicted to the games in my phone. I can occupy myself with it throughout the journey from home to school. gosh.. haha.

Sunday: Had to teach the lil' kids. It's qte a challenge. I never thought it was easy. I had difficulty in grabbing their attention, fortunately Aunty Angie was with me. Hehe. They love craft the best. After service, the youths gathered in the Youth Ark, listening to Shaun's proposal for the coming year. We are determined to bring the YF to a greater height. Getting excited too. Want to have a very close bond with the youths :) Celebrated the November babies' brithdays. Chocolate cake. Had a good time laughing away online at night. My sister can testify that. Haha

Tuesday: Had 5 (3+2 hours break). In fact it's supposed to be 4 hours, but i think our lecturer had forgotten to show up for our tutorial and we couldnt get him. So we had declare it a break. We went to chill at the cafe. Ordered light snacks and indulged ourselves in it. Picked up my fav kind of magazine -- Home decor. Was allured by the way designers had design the furniture, the flooring, the wallpaper etc.. I am very inspired. The thought of becoming an interior designer had been with me since young, but i decided not to take that as a career but as a hobby. Angel may want to take that up, but her dad was against it. If she does, i dun mind helping her out in her shop (provided she becomes a boss of her own). I find it soo cool! The more i browse thru the magazine, the more i want to get a house and design it to my liking. -feeling so excited-

After lessons, Esther and I headed down to Far East to get a pair of shoes. Finally decided on a pair of black heels. It looks cute on her. Haha. She got it cos it wasn't costly and she likes the laces. Well, money was a problem then, cos we both r broke!

After roaming around Far East, we went Cine. I still remember her "what if" qn. Gosh.. We sat there and talked. Talked about things that are happening in our lives now. We talked about our happy moments. I hope wadever decision she makes, she'll b as happy. Then I'll b happy for her too! Love talking to her.

As we talked, we have witnessed a fight. Gosh, rowdy kids. But it soon ended after their friends stopped them. Esther and I cant stand the sight when their female friends stood there laughing among themselves. Hey, ur friends r fighting u noe!

Wednesday: Jeryl's birthday! Blessed birthday sister! Mum ordered pizzas for dinner. I ate qte a lot and i think i'm going to get a sore throat soon. Gosh. So much fried stuff. Unhealthy, unhealthy.. Had a good time laming with Esther Goh. Haha. We're indeed full of crap! A step closer to IMH. Opps. haha. As i attended lectures concerning mental illness, i'm looking forward to my IMH posting. and people say that u cant even distinguish the difference between the patient and the practitioner. oh gosh.. m i becoming like them even b4 i visited them? haha..

2006-11-10T17:05:00.000+08:00

Back to school! NYP has a new cafe. Though there's not much there, but it is qte a nice place to chill.

The timetabling commitee seems to be torturing us. We can have a consecutive break of 3 hours on some days and the rest of the days, so tight. Always start so early and ends late. Dun like Thursday. We have lessons from 11-8pm. With only 1 break!Which is at 3pm, our "dinner break". Horrible.

Watched the NYP Band concert (Symphonia) just now. Was surprised to see Teo Hui there. Thought he left for Melbourne to study, didnt know he is back in Singapore. I didnt believe my eyes, later did i found out that he is on holidays now, that's why he could come back n play as an alumni. There were pieces with Violin solos and also Izyan, our NYP talentine winner, to sing for us "HERO" and "I will survive". Thumbs up to them. Izyan sang during the freshmen orientation, and fond memories back then. Enjoyed listening to the band. If i havent quit, I'll be up there on stage too. Haha.

I seriously think i need a new phone and plan. My current phone have been giving me lots of problems. Always hang (eg. when i receive a sms, or start playing mp3). Ocassionally, the reception just cuts off by itself. Another thing is that when i tried sending out smses, they would prompt me "message sending failed", i check my reception, it's there, i check my balance, still have money to send out smses. Everything's alright, but it jus couldnt send out the sms. So i tried to off n on the phone, and it's back to normal again.
I'm currently using prepaid, which is rather costly. I've been sending lots of smses recently. And more people have been calling in. Hopefully, my parents would not mind paying my bills. hehe..

2006-11-08T13:14:00.000+08:00

During the past few weeks, many things have happened. Things dun seem to get better, even if it does, another problem arises. When will all these end? When will people stop hurting me? I wonder. I couldnt seem to understand life anymore, nor trust the people around me. Nights were spent drowning myself in sorrows. If this goes on, I don't know how am i going to take it. Lord, please help me. Problems are just too overwhelming. I need a break. Seriously. And when i start to pick up my feet, the whole cycle repeats itself. How annoying can life be?

I've shared to my friends around me. I know they tried their best to cheer me up, but somehow I havent fully recover. Sigh.
The world can never be better without you. When the world turns against me, at least I know u all will still be here for me. Thanks a million, buddies!

2006-11-05T18:42:00.000+08:00

Holidays are coming to a close. Tomorrow marks the start of a new semester.
Holidays were good, though i didnt manage to find a job. At least I didnt spend my entire holidays at home n sleeping away. Was able to meet up with a few friends which i havent got to go out with them recently. Went to Sentosa with one of my staff nurses. Had quite a fun time there. Always wanted to go Sentosa, and finally, i did! :) Had late nights almost everyday. Had Esther over at my place. Able to meet up with some of my friends that i havent been contacting. Able to meet my dear Cookie again! Haha.
Many things happen during the holidays, some good, some bad. At least the good covered the bad all up so i dun think about them now. Thanks to my friends out there :p
School is starting tmr, n i'm getting excited. I hope to do well in exams, but i need lots of discipline n concentration. And of cos, study smart. K, I've never got that right :(

After pondering over what Shaun had shared, I really think that I should give more to Christ. I should be more proactive. And after what we have discussed after the YF meeting, I felt that there's a burden in my heart to serve GOD. I always wanted my friends to reciprocate the care i give to them. How about GOD? HE have done so much for us, but have we? Really sets me thinking. But I'm glad what Shaun had brought up after the meeting, about the extra duties that is going to be allocated to each one of us. In that way, we may have a even closer fellowship with like-minded brethren and also, we all have a chance to serve, though our talents may be few. I can sense the warmth that is coming. haha. We are all born to serve the LORD.

2006-11-02T17:35:00.000+08:00

I can't help feeling upset over what had happened over the past few years. You dunno the countless times you've broke my heart. I really couldn't help it but breakdown. Is that what you call 'love' or 'care'? Utterly disappointed.
I have never done anything right in your eyes. I'm always the one at fault. But is it ALWAYS the case? I admit there are times i appear rebellious and stubborn, but have you ever wonder what caused me to be like this? I guess you wont understand, and never will.
I hate the rough road i tread. But I'm trying to accept it, slowly... Sometimes, I wish I could disappear myself so that these problems wont exist.

But I'm glad, at least there are friends who really care. Thanks buddies. You've touched my heart.
Feeling better after letting it out. I love my friends. Thank you Lord for sending them to me.

2006-10-29T00:26:00.000+08:00

Jus shared with Samantha something! *woots*
Have been wanting to share with her all these while. Despite her busy schedule, she took time to listen to me. Thanks thanks. Deeply appreciated. It's like a burden off my back. Though wad i've shared wasn't a burden. haha.
Thanks for ur lovely piece of advice. I'll bear that in mind. Let God take the lead in everything we do. I'll trust and pray :) And u must remember to look at the stars and not the mud at any circumstances ok? haha.. U noe wad i mean *wink* God loves you, so do i!
Love my bestie, she understands me well! It's been a while, since i last talk to her about such stuff already. I thank God for sending such an angel to me. Haha. *Hugs*
Recently, Esther had told me that she n Sandy, her bestie, talked about sum serious girls stuff too. She didnt fill me in though. Haha. But i know she had learnt a lot of things in life from her. That's nice.
Looks like we all have draw the close connections with our best friends once again. Love that feeling.
Thank you, Lord!

Ps: To all 'O' level n 'A' level students, all the best in your upcoming papers! Shine for the LORD!

2006-10-28T13:50:00.000+08:00

Didnt really make full use of my holidays. Spend most of my time staying at home using internet, watch tv, play piano. I know it shouldnt be this way. *Sigh
Pop by Joelle's and Jeriel's house on Tuesday for swimming. Had a real good time with them. I admire Aunty Karen for looking after this twins. It's not easy to handle a kid, what more two at the same time? I have qte a hard time dividing my attention between the twins. Cos i dun want either to feel neglected. But they have grown up now, they know how to look after themselves. Joelle keeps asking me to piggy back her in the pool. She even asked me to jump into the pool, and because it wasn't the way she wanted, she demo for me. haha.. *ruffles* Jeriel didnt really played much with us as he had just hurt his foot. Poor boy.
Ate dinner with them. Joelle and Jeriel requested to sit beside me. Haha. That means, i have to look after them. After seeing that they r much grown up now, i guess they r able to feed themselves, so i didnt really interfere. Autonomy vs shame n doubt. Erickson's theory. Haha. I can tell that they 2 really love me. So do i! *Hugs* LOL..
Esther was supposed to come over n stay on Thursday, but she couldn't as her mum wants to bring her to her friends' gathering. To think that i'm always looking forward to her coming to stay n the events that i planned for the night.. Hopefully next week...
Went shopping on Friday. Got myself a purple top. My first purple top. One of the first few times that i got myself clothes. *smiles* Bought a hairband too. I wanted that long ago, cos the old one broke. Esther bought lots of things too. She have been shopping a lot recently. Happy for her. Ate Kimchi. Hehe. Tastes similar to the instant noodles my parents bought. But this is slightly nicer. With the nice atmosphere and the nice food. Great! =)
Looking forward to next week! Hopefully will be able to visit East Coast Park and Sentosa once again! *prays*

2006-10-22T22:59:00.000+08:00

Friday:
Explored Vivo City with Sarah. We started from level 2. Our first stop was the "porch" in which people can enjoy the picturesque view of the sea, Sentosa, Star Cruise and cable car. But the haze spoils the view. But i reckoned that the haze will go away soon! (: I wanna go Sentosa!!! Someone bring me there, please.
There are just too many shops and it's quite impossible to comb all of them within an hour. Though Vivo City itself is big, on the other hand, it is actually quite small. Cos i managed to bump into a few people that i knew.
Went to the 3rd level. That's one place i would love to be in. Played in the "pool" with Sarah. It's one of my batty ideas again. Haha. There's this sign that states "No lifeguard on duty", but the waters aren't even above knee level. And I'm not the only one who commented on that. Haha. Lots of art students went there to draw. Nice ambience and seems like a conducive environment to study, provided that there are not much people around.
We grew hungry after a while, and decided to stop by an eatery. I'm glad i ordered butter sugar toast bread. Love it so much. Now that they just opened, they have a promotion, if you order toast bread (2 slices), you'll get a drink for free! I asked for milo. And the added lots of milo powder inside. *woots* Enjoying my tea break! :D
Went home soon after all the walking, really tire me out. And the air is really bad.

Saturday:
Was supposed to go down for church cleaning. But my nose wasn't really well. So i gave it a miss. But i decided to work on the camp poster. Got Li Heng, Jon and Sarah to help. Cant stand people chasing me for things. Jus get over and done with it. But the poster still needs to be edited. Lack of certain information. Was busy with it the entire day. Read a chapter of 'A Bend in the Road'. Somehow, the storyline seems familiar. Or mayb i had read it somewhere before. Nonetheless, I'm going to read it. :)

Sunday:
Our church commemorates the 489th year of Reformation today. It's supposed to be next week, but because we're celebrating our 16th Thanksgiving Anniversary.
Had choir practice. Our conductor wasn't present, but we have found a replacement, who is able to listen out for our mistakes and correct as when necessary. I personally feels that there's much to be improved on. As for me, i have difficulties projecting. Need to work a lot on that. And our presentation is next week!! Stress. Haha..
Went jogging. It was great and i have someone to accompany, which makes the jog/walk better. Haha. The weather wasnt too bad, not too sunny nor cloudy. Just hazy. The beach was occupied by a lot of families cos it's on a weekend. I prefer lesser people and have the entire stretch to myself. opps.
I wanna go to the beach again!! It had always been my favourite place.
God answers prayers! And I'm really happy that HE did. Thank you, LORD. -overjoyed- =)

2006-10-21T01:48:00.000+08:00

Did quite a number of quizes lately, cos i didnt have much to do while i'm at home. Spending most of my time, online. Got to do some meaningful ones. My EQ is rather high and so are my logical skills. Well, i dun really trust my results for my logic quiz. Cos i'm at times an illogical person. Sometimes, i dun even know why i can conclude to such a statement. Probably intuition. But most of the quizes show that I'm a jealous person. I agree though. Right now, i can simply count the number of things I'm jealous about. haha. Sounds bad. But yah.. *sigh

To Seng Peng: Heys, cheer up. Deepest condolences to u n your family.

2006-10-19T18:50:00.000+08:00

First time in my life, going out this late. But it's exceptional. :) Cos it's Alex's b'day countdown.
Met up with Ming Jian, AYE n Zhi Tang at Parkway Mac before proceeding to East Coast Park's Mac. One Mac to another..
We reached slightly before 11, but the host isn't here yet. So we sat around n chilled.
Not long after, she's here! We wanted to get sparklers, sad to say, we couldn't find any. But it'll b better with it! We sat under the shelter, talked and catch up a little. Deep in my heart, i was so glad that that someone wasn't here. Opps, how evil. It was almost 12 that Amal asked Alex to pick her from Mac's. I decided to tag along. Amal reached exactly 12! haha.. I gave Alex a big b'day hug. *laughs. Sweet 17, girl! Hope she likes my present.
Went back to meet the rest. Continued our conversations. Alexander, dun b dismayed about wad had happened recently. We're still young. And there's so much ahead of us. Let us move on. Cheer up! I'm sure things will turn out for the better. =)
I wanted to stroll along the beach, but no one to accompany. Haha. Alexander wanted to, but he was wearing his addidas shoes :( Though of asking Bastian to walk with me, unfortunately he couldn't make it at the last minute. He attended a funeral, n his aunt is supersitious, cant mix black n white together (happy n unhappy). *Sigh
Was all ready to take a cab home, when Alex's mum offered to send me back. Thanks aunty!!
Reached home rather late. But was still earlier than someone! =P
Slept late again. Was talking to Esther. Envy Esther n Marie. Aww.. Haha. Lately, I noticed, I'm now the one who initiates to hang up. Cos usually, it's the other party, and i would b very reluctant. haha. Probably, thinking too much on phone bill already. haha..

2006-10-16T23:20:00.000+08:00

Declined someone's offer to meet up. I'm really sorry if i disappoint her. But i think she knows wad is on my mind. And her friend is a social worker? I admire social workers a lot, due to the impression tv dramas gave. Too bad, simply refused to meet up with her. But i didnt really regret though.

To that someone: Thanks for ur advice. Sorry about last night. I made a mess of everything by making u confused n fuelled up with curiosity. But come to think of it, i really didnt make any sense in our conversation ytd. Probably it's the time. I know i was evil but i hoped u understand (:

I thought my day would b free as i didnt meet up with her. However, i soon found a better way to pass my time rather than staying at home, I went to Sarah's place. I was given a choice to either bake a cake or cookies. I choose cookies. We soon gather our ingredients n start off, measuring, mixing etc.. Aunty Poh Hong helped us qte a bit. Since we dun haf brown sugar n cocca, we used milo instead. After a couple of hours, we were done. Baked golden cookies with the aroma of chocolate chips, fresh from the oven. haha. *drools* Left it in the open to harden, so that it'll b crispy. While we waited, we sang songs from RHC. When they r crispy enuff, we packed them into containers. For sale? haha... Nah, for own consumption..
With the PSI of 130, we went ahead with swimming. Yes i noe, "swimming". Silly nephew. Arghz..
Had dinner at their place, sumptuous meal prepared in front of us. Thanks to loving hands that prepared them. (:

Esther coming over to my place to stay over? i cant wait! (:

2006-10-15T21:24:00.000+08:00

BLESSED IS THE MAN

Blessed is the man, the man who does not walk
In the counsel of the wicked - blessed is that man.
He who rejects the way, rejects the way of sin
And who turns away from scoffing - blessed is that man.
But his delight by day and night
Is the Law of God almighty.

He is like a tree - a tree that flourishes,
Being planted by the water - blessed is that man.
He will bring forth fruit, his leaf will wither not
For in all he does he prospers - blessed is that man.
For his delight by day and night
Is the Law of God almighty.

The wicked are not so - for they are like the chaff
Which the wind blows clean away - the wicked are not so.
The wicked will not stand on the judgement day,
Nor belong to God's people - the wicked will not stand.
But God knows the way of righteous men
And ungodly ways will perish.

Blessed is the man, the man who does not walk
In the counsel of the wicked - blessed is that man.

2006-10-11T10:32:00.000+08:00

When you're on a holiday
You can't find the words to say
All the things that come to you
And i wanna feel it too

On an island in the sun
We'll b playing and having fun
And it makes me feel so fine
I can't control my brain

When you're on a golden sea
You don't need no memory
Just a place to call your own
As we drift into the zone
on an island in the sun.

2006-10-07T00:01:00.000+08:00

Last day of attachment! I cant wait for this day to arrive and now it's FINALLY here! Hurray.. My long-waited holidays are here. Sad to say, I havent got any plans during this one month of holidays. Planning to go out with friends and stay at home for most of the days. Provided Branda have found a job, which i have a feeling that that's unlikely. Wanna go overseas too, but doubt have enuff cash. Sigh*
The ward i was in wasn't very bad after all. But the Sisters aren't nice enough. It wasn't even my fault. The nurses who just passed out are qte easy to get along with. Had fun knowing them. But I still prefer NHC. All the staff there are fabulous! Thumbs up to them.
Ting Ting n Xie Jing are going to leave Singapore tonight, back to their homeland-- PRC. Gonna miss them. Take care!! Bon voyage and see you when school reopens!
Haze. Why cant people be more considerate for the health of others? Why must they add more pollutants into the air when we jolly well know that the earth is deteriorating? I understand they have to do that to earn a living too. All i ask of them is to be more thoughtful in future. Sigh*

2006-10-06T01:00:00.000+08:00

Why have You chosen me
Out of millions Your child to be?
You know all the wrong I have done.
O how could You pardon me,
Forgive my iniquity,
To save me, give Jesus Your Son?

O Lord, help me be what You want me to be,
Your Word I will strive to obey;
My life i now give,
For You i will live,
And walk by Your side all the way.

I am amazed to know
That a God so great could love me so,
Is willing and wanting to bless;
His grace is so wonderful,
His mercy is so bountiful,
I can't understand, I confess.

In this world of darkness,
Many lives are filled with emptiness,
They too need to know of Your love.
O Lord, help me point to them
The Truth, the Life, the Way,
And to light each path i tread from day to day.

2006-10-04T22:14:00.000+08:00

2 more days to holidays. Cant wait for them. I really need a break! 6 weeks of attachment is more than enough. Wad more for our PRCP? It's gonna b 6 months n not 6 weeks. I dunno how will i survive then. Hopefully, i enjoy being in that ward, or else, i'm dread going to hospital everyday. Guess my classmates would hate it too. Sigh*
My com's screen is finally ok! Feels so different now. Dun haf to figure out wad the other party says on MSN anymore. With the vertical lines on screen, u can mistake poly friends as boy friends. And to think that I've lived with it for at least 6 mths. Eyesight is sure to be deteriorating. Thanks cuzzie. Always helping us to repair our com. However, the com is still kinda slow. Probably my com's ram is small.
This saturday has lots of appointments. I scheduled my plans, but things keep cropping up. Haix. I wanna do lots of things, but couldn't. Why must it all be on this Saturday? I have lots of opportunity cost then. Sigh* I hate it.
I predict that I'll b falling ill soon, real soon. Nosocomial infection. I think i had that. Plus, i keep having headaches. this is terrible. And one of my patient coughed right into my face jus now. So nice of him. And i dun haf superb immunity. My body defenses arent that good.
Actually i dun mind being sick, n admitted to the hospital. haha. I noe wad i'm thinking is ridiculous, but ya.. guess esther noes wad i meant. In addition, serving food to B1 and A class patients, makes u drool. They look so sumptuous, such great temptation that most of us cant resist. Opps.
Happy birthday greg! Didnt really keep in contact with my sec school classmates now. But i got to talk a lil' to him. haha. Take care pal!! Sweet 18 (:

2006-09-30T19:48:00.000+08:00

Have been doing case study since yesterday. I have completed most of it except for the nursing care plans. Sigh, cracking my brain over it. Have been writing so much since yesterday. hand starting to ache already.
Met up with Alex jus now. She's as attractive as ever. Well, her school have just started, and I'm having my holidays soon. It's so hard to meet up. Nonetheless, I know, I'm going to see her real soon. haha.
I'm looking forward to my com being reformated! It keeps giving me problems. And i'm getting frustrated over it. Now, i'm on my sister's com, typing. so nice of her to offer. but, it's because, i need to do my case study. Ah well, thanks anyway.
Mid autumn festival is round the corner, sales of mooncakes everywhere. Now, my CC is having this function to celebrate this festival. It can be noisy at times. Dunno why must they blast the entire system. Even i living on the 11th storey, of a distance of about 400m from the community club, I'm able to hear every word that they are saying. Fortunately, i'm not in the midst of exams, And i jus found out that Kembangan has an approximate population of 20,000 people. Wow! What more places like Bedok, Tampines, Ang Mo Kio, Toa Payoh etc...? haha.

2006-09-30T00:24:00.000+08:00

The weekend is here. But, i'm not anticipating it at all. Why? Cos there's so much tasks to de done by weekend. Sigh.
In addition, i have to write a composition for one of my patients.Thought i can escape cos he's discharging today, but he said he'll look for me. Gosh, he really mean it. He said he can even come to my school n look for me. Scary. Mayb i should start writing stories to give him inspiration and let him edit my English. But i have to really sit down and think about he's topic. Cos i couldn't have an answer to that. And how can i start? Heard qte a lot from him. Learnt a few lessons too. Nice person to chat with, but it seems that I'm always scared of him. Feeling the uneasiness when we talked. And i think he had sensed that. opps. He reminds me of esther n mark. Unfortunately, i'm not willing to take the step forward. Nontheless, hope he'll get well soon.
Had 10 SDAs today. Sigh. However, most of it were done by Jen. I admired her. Sister knows about it and even helps us to do pre-op checklist. So i became the 2nd junior for the day. In fact, time passes so quickly that i think the amount of work i did today isn't enough. But the nurses here are very helpful. High D has only 1 patient, while the general ward is filled,they will come out n help us. The bond is there. Yeah. That's one thing i like about them.
This posting initally was quite tormenting. But now, it isn't so bad. At least, when u see them smile or even say a simple thank you. At least u feel that u're appreciated. that's the most important thing. Thanks Sam!
Sammie, kind of like the song u send me. The starting depicts the picture u had. Cool! Haha.. Love it. U haf the lyrics? hehe..
Case study, case study n more case study...
I miss NHC... I miss the nurses.. Sigh..

2006-09-25T23:57:00.000+08:00

Dun get upset with wad they say, pal. It's your right and they cant stop you from it.
Each have their own opinion, and obviously everybody cant agree with the same thing.
Ignore whatever they say, cos it wont b doing you any good. Dun let this affect ur studies. Dun let it affect ur temper either.
I'll still be by ur side.. And i'm sure ur bestie too.. Dun worry, they r people out there always supporting u. Cheer up, buddy!
Come to us if u need help. I'll always free to lend a listening ear. (:

2006-09-23T13:36:00.000+08:00

One week have past, no more year 1's around.. No more people to depend on. Oh well... First few days was terrible. But i prayed for the best. And it did became better. Thank God. Haha.
Went to Bernie's house before our shift for lunch. She had whipped up some dishes for lunch. I enjoy her cooking. Whenever i'm at her place, I seemed to be eating more than usual.. The filipino style. It's not too bad. Best of all, i enjoyed her company. Cos we have always have our lunch, alone. Headed to hospital tgt. In the train, i saw qte a number of TKSians. I looked carefully, Chuan Rui with the other sec 4s. haha. He was qte a distance away, when i smsed him to tell him i'm behind him. Haha.. Didnt noe that ytd was their last day of prelims. And on that same train, i saw SN Chow. So coincidental. We talked. Bernie had made friends with Chow too. Didnt noe the junior nurses start work at 1.15pm.. Aww, not fair. Went back with bernie again. How good to have someone u noe to travel with u to work n back. Haha. She was qte exhausted n decided to take a cab home. So she gave me a ride. Thanks thanks! :)
Meeting Esther later. hehe. It seems that every Saturday, i'm going out with Esther. In the past, we used to go out every Saturday without fail. Now that she have to allocate her time for others (ahem*), and yet able to still go out with me, i'm glad enuff. Anyway, she have her weekdays to go out with them.
And i'm sure esther will b getting a scolding. She was out the entire night ytd till 12+pm today. I'm sure her mum will start nagging again. And worse of all, she went out with someone her parents dun want her to mix ard with. Haiz.. Naughty her. Was supposed to meet her at3 but bcos she reached home ard 12+,she needs to rest b4 meeting me. She's always the one who postpone our meeting time and I'm the one who decides the venue n time. Anyway, I'm used to it alrdy. That's her. *Laughs

2006-09-20T23:43:00.000+08:00

Worned out from attachment.
This posting is bad, real bad.
First day, eventful things happened.
Same goes on the second.
The Sister didnt even bother to spend time talking to us.
We briefly orientate us and immediately start work.
No other wards are like that.
Even so, the earliest we started work on orientation day would b ard 10.
It's not even 9.00 and here we are, starting work.
Awful!
That's not the main point.
We have been so clumsy.
Spilling milk, not professional enuff, dropping things..
Mistakes here and there.
Patients get so agitated.
Sigh..
Have been avoiding some patients after those accidents.
Hope they'll forgive us.

We saw some Heart Centre nurses today.
Tingting told me, whenever she sees them,
She feels like going over to them n hug them,
Though she dunno them.
Me too.
But from our past posting,
That's the impression engraved in us.

That day we went back to visit them,
I smsed Zul to tell him.
Haha, he asked if i went back cos i miss him.
In fact, i miss all of them.
My NHC patients too.
I love them all :)

Prelims are over. I hope both the A n O level students can do well!
Study hard n enjoy ur golden holidays soon after O's n A's!

Mum is coming back today.
Thankfully her flight is not delayed.
Things over at Bangkok isn't very good.
At least Mum is back now.
hehe, for the past few days, no naggings!
Woohoo.. Haha.. Opps

2006-09-16T23:41:00.000+08:00

I'm so not going to Sakura (Somerset) with esther anymore.
Arghz..
I had enuff!
But i'm sure she enjoyed it.
Haha..
*jealous

2006-09-16T14:20:00.000+08:00

HAPPIE BIRTHDAY!!! Lost count of ur age already. Haha.. Opps.. Miss ya lots! Hope to meet up with u soon--->My dear Cookie =)

Ytd was my last day at NHC (National Hart Centre).
During this posting, we have learnt much. Beyond what was taught in school. Learning something new everyday. Our clinical instructors have gave us so much notes, and makes sure that we know some of it. Have been qte wll versed with cardiac drugs, myocardial infarction, ECG etc.. Can say that i put in quite a lot of effort in doing my case study too. Cos stayed back after work to do some research.
Enjoyed this posting very much. The staff at 47B are superbly nice. haha.. There are like one big family. And when we're in there, we felt that we are part of that family. Think I've enjoyed this posting the most. Though the ones at KK and 63C wasnt that bad.
We (Ting ting, Xin yi and I) had bought them a box of chocolates and also made them a card. So honoured to see the card we made put up in the board. But it wasnt very nicely made la. Can do better. haha.
Anyway gave one of my patient a get well soon card too! Hope to see him around my neighbourhood some day cos we stay in the same area.
We have a rich patient in our midst but dunno why want to stay in a B2 class ward. She owns a gold shop and offered to give us discount when we visit her shop. She always wanted to treat us to meals but we didnt accept. Until ytd, her family bought her noodles but she cant eat, so she gave it to me. I was qt reluctant at first. But even Sister was asking me to eat it too.. So i have no choice. Haha.. Anyway, a free dinner. Wasnt that bad after all. And not only one patient offers food to me, another one too. But i cant possibly eat both packets at a time right?
One the last two evenings, i made heart and cranes for the nurses using the rough papers they have. hehe.. Hope they'll like it. Zul told me he had kept my crane in his locker for good luck. Haha.. Aww...
Exchanged contacts with Mok n Zul. They are the most junior amongst all.Both graduated from NYP. Zul and us shared the same mentor. Mr Bernard Lian. Mok is soft spoken and kind. She looks the kind that will be pushed around. haha. But i didnt bully her at all!! =)
It's just one day, n i've started missing all of them. Haha.. Ridiculous.
They'll b spending the evening at Sentosa today. Cos of family day. Think Zul will be very very exhausted. He worked evening duty on Fri, and morning on Sat. And he didnt even sleep a wink from Fri night to Sat morning. And he's going to sentosa in the afternoon. Haha.. Wonder how is he going to survive.. Tsk tsk tsk..-shakes head-

Think Esther had enjoyed her posting too. Except for that scare she had ytd. Stop blaming yourself. Imagine if u werent there, it could be worsed. It's God's plan my dear. We're working in this line, and we're sure to encounter such things some day. Take it easy k?
K, I'm jealous, now she's going out with her staff nurse, Ronny. Hmph. haha..
Well, on my side some things didnt turn out too well. I've really pitied one patient. If not for her silly decision, it wouldn't have cost her her life. It's really not worth it at all. Sigh, but now things couldn't be changed. Whatever will be, will be.

Will be going out for buffet with Esther later. And I'm treating her. Haha. Sometimes it's better to give than to receive. Ermz, it seems that I've been doing that all my life. Nevermind, wanna make her happy.

2006-09-08T22:34:00.000+08:00

I've noticed something about attachment. Whenever i enjoy my posting to that ward, something touching always happen. haha. my nurses are nice and so are some of my patients.. i miss 25/2.. So sweet of her to hug me. aww... on the other hand, some r very fussy. but generally most of them r nice. Still can rmb one evening, one aunty was telling me n tingting abt life partners. Haha. Me n tingting were laughing all the way lar, cos of someone we saw. opps.. i really pity diabetic patients with gangrene. It can really become necrotic and turn foul smelling. Did on one of them twice. Gosh, i feel the pain for her. When ur tissues becomes necrotic,the doctors usually ask for an amputation to prevent a further spread. Aunty Tan going back. Finally.. Pari here n there... I really enjoy this posting.. But i kinda feel bad, cos i think i at times went a bit overboard. To think that they treat me so nice. Haiz..
Spent so much time doing case study, stayed back in MO's room to flip case sheets n do research. Argh. If only it's much simpler. Nvm, shall persevere.
Really learnt qte a lot of drugs here. Cardiac drugs to b precised, since it's a cardiac ward. Now can almost classify every drugs found in the IMR. Hehe. Study pharmacology n be a pharmacist? Tingting n polly were saying that they earned much more than nurses. Not too sure abt that cos they didnt tell us the pay. Nevertheless, being a pharmacist, u have to know so many drugs n catch up with times, cos there r always new drugs coming up. And the same drug can have many different names. eg, panadol aka acetaminophen aka paracetamol. yah.. see? but one is trade name, another is generic name. I admire pharmacist too. I was walking towards the ward when i saw this pharamcist. I query about renalvite cos i couldn't find it in the drug guide. She could simply tell me it's actions without much thought. She solved my ytd afternoon's problems. Haha.
Going to Jurong East swimming complex later! haha. Looking forward to it. Havent been exercising for a while. The last was walking/jogging from home to siglap to opera estate n along changi road then cutting thru kembangan private houses, then to home. Took me abt 1 hr plus. It's almost like walking to n fro from Kembangan to Bedok MRT station.

2006-09-06T00:31:00.000+08:00

This posting is real good. Learnt much more things compared to the previous. There are qte a number of notes given and things that we need to read up. Well, unfortunately, next week i have to work alone. Sigh. Nvm, it's the last week anyway. Get to see telemetry. But the most fortunate thing is that my ward nurses are kind, caring and friendly, at least i'll enjoy my 3 wks of posting, compared to my friends in other wards, suffering.
Mei Li--> willing to teach. always there to help. i admire her cos she's pregnant n yet have to work so hard. still haf yet to find out who her husband is.. haha
Marities--> Didnt really talk much to her but she's always there to supervise. A filipino n yet a senior. Wow.
Xin Yue--> Another staff nurse that's pregnant. Kind and friendly.
Lena--> Knows her work well. Helpful and provides us with opportunities.
Devi--> The first staff nurse who says we're hardworking and wants to report it to our lecturer. Haha. Opps. Didnt really work much with her though.
Zul--> He's the man. haha. Opps. A few years our senior. The joker, the guy who had chicken pox three times.
Mok--> A junior. soft spoken. always putting a smile on her face.
Wang Zhen--> A PRC. Helpful. Inquistive.
Wonder who else have i left out. opps. The list goes on....
Finally get to talk to esther. It's been more than a week since i last talked to smsed her. Who ask her to reject my calls or rather, refused to pick them up. Hmph. Buttalked to her on th phone jus now. Got to hear abt C/S. They're a bit too much la. But wad can we do? the society is like that, full of kiasu. And yay!!! She's getting internet connection tmr. Be sure to add me on MSN hor. Haha..
Case study. It's hard to settle down on one. and i guess i'm going back to school on friday to do it. ahh..
was supposed to b asking germaine n yee leng out, but yee leng cant make it on friday. and i doubt i have any other days to spare. sigh. will meet up soon, if not yee leng will not forgive us (germaine n me) for wad we did to her the last time. Opps. haha...
Saturday, will be going out with church pals again. Hehehe.. To Jurong east swimming complex. Esther ever told me about it before though. About lazy pool and the slides. haha. Now, going to see for myself! I heard it's similar to Wild Wild Wet, jus that this is cheaper. Haha..Cool!! Whoever is going, confirm ur presence with me. 11am at Chinese Garden MRT control stn. (:

2006-09-04T00:13:00.000+08:00

Today's Kel's birthday! Happy birthday! Miss you lots.. Hope to meet up after ur exams soon! Haha.. Send my regards to Elaine too! =)
Didnt really blogged about my thoughts recently. There's qte a lot to say, but didnt want to share.
In the midst of attachment. Qte good. My ward nurses are seriously nice. My collegues can prove it too. Haha. I think my Sister is caring. Aww.. Ting ting will know what i mean. If only i have a friend like her. Haha.
Went to Comex to walk around. Didnt have anything in mind. More of a time of shoving and inching my way thru the bustling crowd. Haha. Reminds me of 2005 IT show. The Canon, Epson etc.. If only i can rewind back to those times. I dun mind going down a few more times then.
Jojo is becoming more like jerry. Haha.. Nice cousin to hang out with. Thanks for the Hougang chalet invitation.
I've been hanging out more frequently with my church friends now. Probably cos of meetings. Anyway, i find myself looking forward to church evry sunday. I dun mean in the past i dun. Just that now, it's much more. I enjoy fellowshipping with them. Talking about that, we (jeryl n i) just gave aunty judy a teachers' day gift. haha. Okay, she isnt really our teacher la. Cos that day while walking ard TM with her, that thought struck me. Since she's nice enuff to buy things for me. Hope she likes it! Haha. (:
It's getting late, and i think Kel is asking me to go to bed. Opps. Okay birthday boy, ur wish is granted! =)

2006-09-03T23:03:00.000+08:00

" The room was filled with friends and families, surrounding the patients' bed. All except one.. She hasnt got any visitors ever since the day she was being admitted. The nurse approached her, "is everything ok? if u need anything, do press the call bell." She gave a slight smile on her face and replied a thank you. The nurse sense something not quite right, but decided not to probe further.
After when the crowd went away, the nurse came in to check on her patients again. Her eyes was fixed at bed 5... The rest were asleep except for her. She sat with her knees crouching close to her body. She sat there thinking. The nurse walks towards her, "it's the wee hours of the morning, why arent you asleep. A penny for your thoughts?"
"What does a family means to you, missy?"
"Someone who cares and loves you.Kin that will understand and go thru thick n thin with you."
She muttured softly, " nobody cares..."
The nurse became more concerned. "Why did u say so?"
"Ever since I'm here, no one have visited."
Tears overwhelmed her eyes.
"My dad n mum barely bothers about me. They dote on my brothers better, probably cos i'm a girl. Each night, i'm asked to stay in the room to study. Whenever i'm studying, i can hear laughters and conversations from the rest of the family that are sitting outside in the living room. I felt so left out. But no one can comprehend. Whenever i tried to share with my friends about it, they are never free because they are always occupied with their own cliques. I'm left all alone and no one to turn to. I dun feel the love and care i deserve. Sometimes i think that i'm not even part of the family. I'm devastated."
The nurse wanted to help, but she was dumbfounded. She pats on her back, hoping that that will cheer her up somehow. The nurse tried to change her pessimistic thinking, but to no avail.
The nurse spent some quiet moments with her, and soon after, walks away. She sat at the nurses' counter pondering about the questions raised a while ago."What does a family means to you?"
In fact, she barely even know what it meant. Her family isn't as bad as her patient's. But the bond isn't there. Her family were just like tenants living with her. Just exchanged ocassional conversations. But most of the times were fights and quarrels.
She reflected.
Seeing the big groups of friends and families her patients have, made her feel guilty. "I want to cherish my family. I want to change things, but..." "

It sure takes lots of courage and determination to make a difference. What does family means to you? A friend ever asked me, "how much time in a day do u spend with them?"
A time to think and reflect upon...

2006-08-29T19:41:00.000+08:00

Want to blog but dun want to put my feelings down. Even i myself dun understand. Think there's left with one person who knows the answer, that is God. Confused but not say confused. Blur but not say very blur.. Know it but then dun really know it. So there, that's my feeling. Understand?Guess u dun.. Cos i dun.. haha.. wad a silly entry!

2006-08-27T23:56:00.000+08:00

6 weeks of attachment is here... I hoped for the better.. If not, i'll b dreading my foot to hospital everyday.. Sigh.. I'll b at SGH.. Can come n look for me! (provided i have the time too..) Haha..
Camp mtg.. Arghz.. Nvm... Haha.. Hope everything will go smoothly (:
If only "if only" doesnt last in this world.. How great that would b! Cos everything happens your way!
Face the reality Joline, n stop dreaming.. Stop fantasing.. Haha.. Enough is enough..
Advice to Angel: Dun think too much! Cos if not u'll end up like me... Concentrate on ur studies n put that aside.. Cos i guess she'll also do the same.. Haha.. Dun worry too much eitherHope that gift acts like a wishing wand. Let's wish upon a star.. Hehe..

2006-08-27T23:13:00.000+08:00

I'm so glad that things happen this way,
Though sometimes i wish for more,
And if it was the way i wished,
I may regret it somehow.

That's more than just these,
But i know in everything
There's always a limit.

May those lil' things brightened up your day,
Just like how u brightened mine.

You r my confidant n my guide,
The only few that i can really trust.
Whenever I go astray,
You'll always bring me back..
Back to the path that i should tread.

Sometimes words just pricked my heart,
But at the end of it,
You did these bcos u cared.

One of the blessings that God gave to me,
Was the day that i came to know you.
And i have never regretted since,
Cos i may not realise the real meaning of friendship.

You're the very few that i can really call "Friend"
The very few that i dun mind sacrificing for.
These are just words to see,
Deep down in my heart, there's more to it (: