Haha.. Had a real great day. Was even thinking of not going down to sch for lessons as i had planned to go over to Heliconia (Wenqing's residence) for a swim. I'm getting fatter, gotta slim down. Unfortunately, silly "Virus" lesson is on! Haix.. Wanna skip lessons but i think it's so not me and i dun think it is right. Mayb I'm just too rule-following (or whatever u call that). Still rmb my sec 3 incident. Something that struck me n caused a change. Dun really wish to talk abt it. Guilt filled my heart. I was so down at that point of time where nothing can cheer me on n life seems to change for the worse. I tot my future would b ruined. However, wif God's help, I noe it is a way of improving myself. havent been sharing it wif anyone except for Samantha. My sec sch pals should noe abt it. Well, sometimes i think that i was wrongfully accused. But what's done has been done. I dun wish to b in a worse state anyway. Postponed my swim to the later in the evening when the sun would not b too scorching. Then Angelyn n Tang Wee were suggesting to go over Angelyn's place to study. Ermx, at first i was shocked.. Study??? Is it a joke? Cos they hardly study. Opps.. Correct me if i'm wrong. Ha. They are even willing to follow me to my station n wait for me to go back home n grab some books. So i decided that i'm inclined to their idea. (btw, I'm prepared not to study too) Before i left my hse, Tangwee called me n tell me that they r going to KBox to destress. Hahas. Ermx, are u stressed in the first place? Wells, I followed after considering that they are already waiting for me. So bad of me if i decided not to go. Went to Tampines challenger wif angelyn as she want to exchange her card reader. guess she got the wrong one. then headed towards lib, tang wanna use the internet to serve friendster. our sch com doesnt haf access to friendster.too strict in their limitations already. haiz.. anyway, angelyn created an account for me, or rather she created using my name. yup, password all she create one. haiyo.. sure can hack into my acc anytime. gosh. saw Jamie, Angelyn's fren. Well, she look sweet in pic n in person. If only i haf her looks. Outgoing it seem to b. She n her classmate, who i tot it was jamie's bf, came to lib to study. that guy i saw looked familiar n i kept staring at him. opps.. stares causes danger i noe. but i'm jus figuring out who is he n where i saw him. well, Jamie enlightened me, SRJC 1st 3 mths. Hahs. That's where i were. Went over to KBox wif ferdy tagging along n sing our hearts out. ermx, i noe i'm soft cos i feel bad. my singing is terrible. think the glass r shattering. well, i realised it was not of a problem when my confidence grew. hehex.. tangwee n angelyn kept singing Forever Love. I think it's their all-time-favourite. hahas.. You can hear it playing at least 5 times. I'm bored of tt song alrdy. pardon me. it's not tt it is not nice but jus sick of it. Ferdy hardly sang, claiming his chinese is not very good. i think it's ok.. u can hear all of us stuttering when it comes to some words that we dunno how to read. opps. but it is a good way of brushing up our language right? hehex.

Saw Teohui outside college store n talking to some guy. He looked familiar, however, jus cant figure out. Now i noe, NYPF'03---Iskandar. Hahas. Angelyn said Teohui doesnt look as muscular as i described but his voice is sexy. Wahaha.. Okies. Well, Teohui is nice chap. Realli nice n caring, suited for nursing cos he has all the prerequisites. K, i dunno how to spell. Anyway, i'm trying to improve my english. All my secondary sch frens english are getting better and some, way above me. Gosh.. Terrible.. Mixed too much wif Tang Wee? hahas. kidding. K, back to topic, Iskandar told me tt i looked familiar too.. M i the girl who jus came out of the college store? It's so duh n lame.. Hahas.. Oh man. But didnt noe he is tt funny.

Marie came back from china. I guessed her flight touched down in the wee hours of the morning. gosh. n she missed sch today. okies, got nth to say. she's tired i'm sure. well, n she told me she jus woke up.. ermz, time now is 5+.. hahas..

Today, groups 1 n 2 present neglience for 1082 ICA. we do not have any topics to work on except for neglience, but it cant b all of us presenting the same topic. it'll b such a bore plus i dun think we can score well. anyway, tried to find articles but to no avail. Fortunately, search thru so many webs n found one. hahas.. I'm glad i'm in that website. However, all the group members dun seem commited to doing the ICA. Branda n esther always haf something to see to. Jane n Mary are available but cos Branda n esther cant make it, how can we continue? Gosh, okies.. Nothing to say. N tmr the PRCs cant do for long. Think our ICA will get a failure grade if none of us put in some effort. Pls, i dun wish that to happen n time n again i've been emphasising abt the ICA.. It seems that no one bothers. K i noe i'm naggy, but i'm sorry. It's graded u noe.. U dun wish for a fail right? pls... Sometimes i jus cant take it. Even if we set aside time for ICA, we ended up talking n drifting far away from the topic. got nothing else to say. I'm stressed by it. Do anyone noes how i feel?

I've got 1000 n 1 things to complain about but i decided to keep it in my heart. why would anyone b bothered reading them anyway? it doesnt interest them. n not many ppl understand how i feel. so does penning it down solves the problem? you'll still haf to face it no matter wad.. Sigh n sighs....

Exams coming.. M i feeling the stress now? I dunno wad's my answer... i'm like in no mood for exams.. different feeling.. I wish i'm in cloud 9 at this moment. dun wish to think of things on earth.. jus throw them away n live the life that is best for me.

I miss Angel. But does Angel miss me? Hahs. Doubt so. I'm sorry Angel if u r reading this. I knew u wont miss me. U would rather miss your loved one right? I think I've asked too much from you n should put an end to all these. I wished you arent the one... But it happened.. I think i'm all to blame. Life just seems to haf so much faults.. N the problem lies in me.. I wanna change, change for the better. I noe i haf a stubborn character n expects a lot but wad to do? that's me.

I'm going to stop now. Think i've got lots of things to b done. This year didnt haf a great start after all. Haix..