Monday, May 29
2:47 PM
I've PASSED! Thank God! He's so gracious. Anyway this was the first time i wasnt even nervous at all.. calm like anything. And it's not because i'm confident.. It's because, I'm prepared to receive any comments.. be it pass or fail.. I'm emotionless when i was having my assessment. i kept repeating my points. Hahas... Well, I'm so glad i did not get heparin. Cos heparin was the toughest.. So many ppl fail bcos of tt.. We dunno wad syringe to use.. We dunno how to count. Only Branda managed to pass.. Happy for her! I think we need more details for heparin. Anyway i got iv connection. Only have to connect the adapator to the plug.. I rmb going thru tt on saturday.. Fortunately i still can recall.. YaY... I've passed.. *heaves a sigh of relieve* Clinical assessment has been on my mind non-stop since last week. Now it's over. Have the theory paper to "look forward" to.. Wednesday.. Haix.. And Monday for bio practical.. *sighs
Suddenly feeling the urge to meet up wif my friends in NYP. KW, Joel, Jodie etc.. Mayb got influenced by esther.. She n her daryl.. Haix.. Hahas.. Meet up too much till i think she spending more time wif him than us alrdy.. Arghz.. Hmph
Today... So many things happening..
- da jie's b'day
- meimei's o lvl
- my clinical assessment
- daddy n mummy back from bangkok
- bernadette shifting house
- mummy n daddy's anniversary
- fandi ahmad's b'day
Haha.. Though some not concerning me.. Hehex.. Anyways.. Happy birthday jie! Must treat us out.. start working alrdy.. richer now huh.. haha..
Dunno how meimei will fare for chinese paper today.. Hope those who r taking can do well! All the best~
Bernie shifting house.. To bedok.. Nearer to me!!! yay.. Next time can meet up wif her easier le! hehex.. Will b visiting her new house soon...
Miss angel.. though not so much.. miss my frens.. SRJC frens.. hahax.. Kelvin, charlene, desiree, james, yi ling, winnie, hui mei, seng peng, fei fan, nicholas, poh loong etc... Arghz.. How time flies.. Must meet up soon!! SOON! Cant wait for holidays to start!!!
fOoTpRiNtS iN tHe SaNd
Saturday, May 27
1:10 AM
Eleanor jus sent me our "school song". Gosh.. I love it. The tune, his voice n everything. It brings back MEMORIES...
Memories of:
- Our freshmen orientation in 2005
- Student mentor traning camp
- Freshmen orientation in 2006
Well, miss Andy Poh.. He played the guitar n sang the song that he composed himself. The lyrics r jus so meaningful. It's more like the ambience created when we sung in unison during orientations. Miss those time.. Regretting now.. never cherish those times.. Now Dr Andy Poh is gone... Sniff sniff.. OGK wad had happened.. well, i really hope he can come back n teach us again. He is such a good teacher. I wondered why he left.. He left early this year if i'm not wrong. On our orientation we haf to sing his song without him. But we had brendon to play instead of andy n also another girl to sing. Well, haf to admit that they r both good. But, andy.. It's jus different. Miss him!!!
Played his song entitled the healing touch over n over again. Flashbacks of the first day of orientation.. He stood on stage wif 2 other guitarists. Leading us into singing.. His voice.. His playing.. Everything.. It's just like ytd.. Kinda admire him for his talent instantly.. I vividly remembered his name since then.. So did Tang Wee.. hahax.. I still remember, first day we were all shy.. Even too shy to open our mouths. Now as i looked back, i regretted not singing my heart out. Regrets... I want to playback the times!!! Rahhh...
Clinical assessment is on Monday. 29 may. Wad a memorable day. Da Jie's b'day, tt's when mummy n daddy coming back from bangkok, meimei's o level chinese, daddy's n mummy's anniversary.. I fear of clinical. Arghz.. Now, it may b tough.. I hope i can persevere! I'm grateful enuff if i pass. Sigh...
I miss those times!!!!
fOoTpRiNtS iN tHe SaNd
Never go away,
I want u to stay.
And always b my fren
from now till the end.
For your friendship i'll fight,
from day until night.
Because in you i see,
A reflection of me.
And there's one things tt's true,
I've found a friend in you.
fOoTpRiNtS iN tHe SaNd
Wednesday, May 24
12:52 PM
We both fell sick at the same time.. Good or bad? Or u can say, "tong gan gong ku".. hahax.. Well, which means sharing weals n woes together. In fact, we fell sick though we didnt even met up? Or izzit because of friday? Opps. Anyway, was down with a sore throat n throat irritation which leads to cough. Due to never drink water after meals. I.e., Fall sick related to never drink water as evidence by coughing and phelgm secretions, (subjective data: coughing and complain of throat dryness, objective data: voice change). Heys, this sounds like a nursing diagnosis. Opps.. Too much of nursing now.. I m training myself not to drink water for at least 2 hours after meals. Cos i've received an email saying that one way to prevent yourself from contracting a chronic illness such as diabetes, hypertension etc..., you should not drink water for at least 2 hours after meals. I have been drinking water immediately after meals since young. So i'm trying to curb this habit.. And i ended up having sore throat. I ever tried before.. n got the same result.. Gosh... Terrible right? Think i'm prone to chronic illness already.. I wanna go over to look after you.. Haha.. Cos i'm a nurse. But i myself also sick. But i dun mind.. Dun mind neglecting my health. I'd rather put my friends above self. That's me..
Having been missing something or someone... Well, wanna meet up soon! Hehex... Soon n REAL soon!
Projects n projects. The past week have been focusing on projects more than anything else. Not friends, not studies, not computer, not family, but PROJECTS. Well, projects make u learn n do more research on a topic. in a way it is good.. but to seek co-operation from your fellow members is not an easy task. Some r jus too happy-go-lucky n dun bother abt it. Some really puts in much effort in making the presentation better. U can see all kinds of people n their character. I'm glad that our sub-group aren't lazy ppl. We have Branda who always spend much time in doing research, n her favourite place is the library, the RBC! Esther, our good srcipt writer n actress. Jin Fang n Yun Fei our book finder. Yun Fei does noes how to present n captivate our attention. She makes the class laugh at times. A good comedian?! And me? Err.. I dunno.. Haha.. Jus sit there n contribute in whatever way i can.. Wadever it is, this makes our sub-group fantastic! Starry subgroup~~!!
Wishing for holidays to draw nearer.. Wanna go overseas with friends again! This time wif different group of ppl.. Hmm.. Bangkok? KL? Havent confirm.. Wanna really enjoy the golden holidays we have! I'm so looking forward to our break week! My mind cant stop thinking of it.. Will the week pass faster till it reach our break week and pass much slower? If only there's such a thing called stopwatch n acelerator to control the time we have.
Clinical is our greatest fear.. Our lecturer told us, if we fail our clinical theory paper, no sub paper.. But we have a sub paper for clinical assessment. Think i have a high chance of failing both. Cos i havent really started on it n it's not easy.. No confidence too.. If i fail, dun b surprised! cos i'm not. So many of us have the same thinking.. Ah! But we still must press on~ Yup, tt's the spirit!!!
Someone is feeling very down recently.. Have been pouring her troubles to me. Well, i m a good listener but not a good advisor. Opps, jing heng, u should pity yourself huh? Hahax.. Hear her cries during the nights. I hope she'll get better. Everyone faces some trying times in different phases of life. And since it's the way God puts it, we have to accept. It's all God's plan. Cheer up~! smile more!!! =)
Went swimming n sauna wif wenqing ytd at her condo. As usual, empty.. Well, at least we have the entire pool side to ourselves. Didnt really swim.. Spend most of the time talking instead. Went for sauna.. 20min? Hahax.. Cool! i mean warm... LOL.
Have not been blogging much recently. n i think i'm losing my readers.. Opps.. Pardon me.. Tests r coming.. N as i said, i havent been touching on it... Arghz.. Dun have good time management. Sorry!
fOoTpRiNtS iN tHe SaNd
Saturday, May 20
3:50 PM
Enjoyed going out wif ya! Hope u had fun too. Dun need to feel bad. It's jus a treat. Hehex. The most next time u treat me in return. And the time we were talking in Swenson's.. I was so glad that we really met up. Cos it seems like ages that we last met. Opps. Anyway, hope i didnt bore u out. And sry for leaving most of the decisions to u. So fun seeing ppl playing tennis right? Next time my turn to see u play. Hehe.. Hope u will always b in the pink of health. Aimez mon ange cheri~
fOoTpRiNtS iN tHe SaNd
Wednesday, May 17
12:28 PM
In school eplaza. Doing project. So sickening. Got info but got no reference. And somemore got much things to do. Well, it seems nobody even care about the project. Only Branda, who did most of it, Esther who did the role play, and myself, arranging most of it n thinking how to answer qtn 2!! Arghz.. I have a strong feeling we wont do well for this project. Wadever! Anyway i dun like the lecturer too. But it's my marks. haix.
So happy ytd. Went home, go online and copied notes until hand tired. Watched tv. Smsed Angel n CR. Hehex. Can meet angel!! But not today.. We meeting on Friday! Woohoo~! So excited!! Cant wait. Haha. Can see my madness alrdy huh.. Wad's our plan? Hmm.. Havent really decide. Opps. Hope we can go out longer. But wad if her parents call? Haix.. I pity her at times. Restricted by her parents so much. Go out, the maximum like for 1 hr. To me, 1 hr is more like travelling to n fro. Wad's the point? But of cos, she always breaks the 1 hr limit. Haha. Dunno if i'll b having elective a not. If dun haf can go off early! Hehex.
fOoTpRiNtS iN tHe SaNd
Monday, May 15
2:36 PM
Went out wif B1 on Friday. hehex. Enjoyed myself lots! I accompanied her to buy her mother's day gift then walked around in PS. Ate at Kopitiam. The Bandung there so expensive. Haha, i rather drink in sch. Anyway, we bought movie tickets! Poseidon, 11pm. Woohoo.. So late. But got someone to send us home. Not too bad after all.. hehe.. Evil me. I've got Angel a prezzie! Yay! I qte like the pink one but it's pink in colour. Angel dislike it. Hahax.. Nvm, the present is for angel n not me anyway. Feel so proud after buying it. Hehe. Made it early for the movie. Well, we feasted on nachos n finished it even b4 the show starts. Cos tt's Marie's fav. The commercial like so long (compared to the usual). Poseidon is similar to Titanic. The difference are Titanic is much more romantic than Poseidon n Poseidon is more adventurous. Within half an hour, the ship start to sink. (Very anti-climax horz?) Well, but kinda nice.. After the show, we visited the washroom.. Our bladders cant tolerate any longer. PS toilets always have advertisments regarding the movies.. This time a ghostly nun. Morever, the toilets lights r only half on. Arghz.. We went to the darker side cos got lesser ppl. Haha. N then we had a hilarious laugh after that. I've done something so silly n funny. We spent like near 10 minutes laughing in the toilet non-stop. Hahahaha. When we were walking down the escalators, I've spotted bananas in pyjamas! Took a pic wif them. hahax.. Depicts us wad, she's b1 n i'm b2. Anyway, we had a difficulty finding the exit. Cos, it's past 1 n most of the exits r sealed. But so glad to b able to make it home. Dunno who go n lock the latch. Made me disturb my eldest sis to wake up n open for me, if not i'll b slping outside... Haha
Went t0 Bernard's on Saturday. Well, Saturday morning, piano. Followed by project wif sub-group for our ICA. Then to bernard's. Busy schedule? Haha. Yup, n spent so much money on calls. Gosh, mum's going to kill me.. Spent so much this month.. Ever since meeting up wif Joel for church. Bleah.. We stayed there watch tv, play monopoly, swim, talk n eat. Wanted to stay over but in the end, changed our mind. haix... Left there ard 10+. Waited for Dennis to pick Marie at Kembangan MRT station. Well, we sat there n sing to ourselves. Our rather, i'm singing.. Opps.. Talked a bit n take pics.. Left for home.. Alone.. Wanted to take a stroll back. The entire day wasnt feeling good.. Even called Angel to pour my feelings again. She talked sense in me.. But still, didnt feel much better.. Too negative on some things.
N this affected Sunday. But i was qte ok after the sermon. Have to play for the choir for the new piece.. Kinda horrid though. Havent practise recently. Arghz.. Sorry.. N my rhythm was terrible.. CMI! haha.. But managed to pull thru.. So stressed, n it's not even the actual day. Ahh.. Went back slept for a while n headed down to Bedok South for dinner. Ya, "mother's day dinner". It was so casual.. Like any others..
fOoTpRiNtS iN tHe SaNd
Friday, May 12
2:58 PM
Forever love by Gary Barlow (now playing)
Love it has so many beautiful faces
Sharing lives and sharing days
My love it had so many empty spaces
I'm sharing a memory now i hope that's how it stays
Now i'm deep inside love and still breathing
She is holding my heart in her hand
I'm the closest i've been to believing
This could be love forever
All throughout my life the reasons i've demanded
But how can i reason with the reason i'm a man
In a minute i'm needing to hold her
In an hour i'm cold, cold as stone
When she leaves it gets harder and harder to face life alone
Now my dreams are filled with times when we're together
Guess what i need from her is forever love
fOoTpRiNtS iN tHe SaNd
Thank you for saying that I'm special,
Thank you for being you,
Thank you for wad u did for me
Thank you for being there.
Thank you for understanding me,
Thank you for your care
Thank you for being such a great pal
Cos life will never be wad it is without you.
I hope you'll feel my care around
To assure you that at least i cared
To be with you by your side
And share your weals n woes
I'll carry your burdens
And you'll carry my happiness
I'm willing to do wadever it takes
Just to see u smile.
You changed my life
And made me understand what's a true friend
You made me realised wad's life
And eventeach me how to cope
I never regret the day i knew you
Cos if i did, i dun noe how can i survive the obstacles I've faced
You made my day
You made me smile
No matter how tough life may seems
Or wad difficulties i may faced
No matter how much thank you i may say..
It'll never b enuff to express my gratitude towards you
And now u may face a change in life
The ups n downs
Do not feel sad,
Cos you know i'll b there
There for you,
Whenever you need me,
I'm jus a call away..
Take my hand when you feel lonely,
Turn to me when you need someone to lend on
Cos till then,
I'll b your friend holding on!
Smile always..!
Cos you know that there's always someone who loves you more than you know!=)
fOoTpRiNtS iN tHe SaNd
Monday, May 8
11:52 PM
I'll Always Be There
In times of trouble,
In times of need,
If you are feeling SAD,
You can count on me.
I will give you a wink,
Until you smile,
I'll give you a hug,
And stand by your side.
I'l l be there for you till the end,
I'll always and forever,
be your friend!
fOoTpRiNtS iN tHe SaNd
As most of them know, my grandma have jus passed away on saturday morning. Wake is held at AMK. Have to attend practically everyday. Not a chore but it's a means of respect. This was wad happened on saturday.
It's was abt 5+ in the morning when our home phone rang. Being a light sleeper, i was awakened by it. Due to inertia, I didnt went to pick it up. But my father was already answering the phone call. I didnt look at the time though but i noe it's still early. The skies r still dark. I thought to myself. Who would call at this hour? Thoughts of the demise of my grandma came straight to me. I heard my father said,"ok, ok.. ok.. ok.." N soon after, he left the house.
Cos on friday when we visited her, her condition was qte serious. Even the sister from Assai Hospice wrote in the nurses' notes that she is in a seriously ill condition. Her breathing was shallow, pulse was almost inpalpatable. The sister had to take the BP thrice to get one reading. I heard from my aunt that she is left with only 1/3 of her left lung to survive on. We can tell that she's struggling very hard to live on. When we visited her, she was just like a bag of bones n in a semi-conscious state. We tried to feed her wif morphine, hoping that she can hear us n shallow her medicine down. She did, somehow. But her response was real slow.
I didnt went to think much.. Till abt 7am.. My mum broke the eventful news to us. Sigh..
Went to AMK, my late granny's place. My aunt were busy packing. We set up the tables n chairs under the void deck, waiting for the body to arrive. Well, since it was a taoist funeral, i had to withdraw myself out of some things they did. Like pray to her, offer incense n things like that.
Didnt want to stay there longer. Due to qte a number of reasons. So i decided to meet up with Joel n visited his church. Qte cozy. hahax. the youths went to eat after that. I apologise for being so late. I'm really sorry. Hehe. Opps. But u last minute tell me meet at 6.30pm, i also cant reach in time. Anyway thanks for accompanying me.
fOoTpRiNtS iN tHe SaNd
Saturday, May 6
12:06 AM
Bad? Probably.. Situation arent getting on well.. Deteriorating.. Anyway, jus hope for the best!
But i have to thank Angel for all the great comfort she gave me. At least she always accomplishes her mission by cheering me up. So glad to have her as my fren. Love her lots! Arghz.. When i experienced any setbacks, she's always there for me! hahax.. But she's also pitiful. Always so drained.. Hahax. If only i can give my strength to her. N i hope her hand is recovering well. Guess so.. From wad she said over the phone. I wanna colour her life jus like wad she did for me. Thanks.. Deeply appreciated. Told her i cherish my freinds more than i cherish myself. But do they do the same? Hahax.. She said tt's people.. Well, but she reassured me she's not! Wah. I'm so happy!! =)
B1 helped me a favour. Gosh, now i understand. hmm.. Okays. Shouldnt say too much, if not it'll make things worse. Hahax. Take one step at a time.Thanks B1!
fOoTpRiNtS iN tHe SaNd
Thursday, May 4
3:39 PM
Things arent getting well for my grandma. Seriously ill. Her prognosis is less than 3 months now i guess. Haix. Heard tt she was unconscious ytd. Dad went to see her.. Dunno how is she now. Havent visited her since her b'day. How unfilial.
Went back wif Joel ytd. haha.. Eh, sorry for making u wait for me. opps. We talked qte a fair bit though. The topics were jus too interesting that i was reluctant to get off at kembangan. Hehe. So i sat till Tampines n travel back again. How lame can i get!? Anyway, i always dun like going home. Dunno why. Mayb cos it's qte far in? Or mayb bcos of past memories. Joel told me, "love thy neighbour as yourself..." Hmm, mayb should practice that now. How many times i've tried? But it always futile. Arghz.
Esther got her new hp. Haha. She's happy n so paranoid whenever we mishandle it. hahax. Her savings.. Well, i got new phone too. If only mine has bluetooth!! Ahh.. Everybody is like bluetooth-ing here n there. Cant stand it. Even infrared also got problem. Forget it. We were taking pics ytd in the lib, supposed to b discussing for projects. But nobody is disciplined to do it anyway. I think the most disciplined sub-group in our class is Niz's group. So efficient. Hehe, unlike us..
Talked to Angel online ytd. 14 more days to go. Told her whatever i felt when it's mine. How terrible can it get?! Hate it. At least her last made her happy. Unlike mine. It's always.... How dreadful m i when the day arrives. So wad? Happy on the outside, distraught on the inside. I'm jus putting on a show. Nobody ever really understand. Mayb not even Angel though she's one that understands me so well. Haix.. I jus wish tt the calendar can jus remove that day so i can b happy the rest of the year. Yah, i can dream on... If only there's surprises.. But who's there to do it? Ahh, noone. N forget it! Haix.. Kk, will b counting down... Hope she'll b glad on tt day!! =)
fOoTpRiNtS iN tHe SaNd
Tuesday, May 2
1:07 PM
You're always there, there for me
But that's wad it used to be
Now u r gone, n i'm all alone
No one here that i can confide
You made me smile when'er I'm down
You listen to my cries n cheer me up
You made me trust u n love you more
Loving you more n more each day
You snuggle up to me
Showering your love n care
But that was the times...
The times it used to be
Do u understand how much u meant to me?
You r more than jus everything
I love you, and i really do
But now you're gone..
And i know not when will u b back
With me by your side
Mayb time and distance had drift us apart
But I'm sure that soon I'll come for you
Why must I b the one sacrificing?
And gaining nothing till the very end?
I want you back,
Not bcos i want someone to confide
But someone who can love n care
You r too cute for words
And made me fell for you
Truely.. Deeply..
I love you..
To my dearest---> Cookie
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