Saturday, September 30
7:48 PM
Have been doing case study since yesterday. I have completed most of it except for the nursing care plans. Sigh, cracking my brain over it. Have been writing so much since yesterday. hand starting to ache already.
Met up with Alex jus now. She's as attractive as ever. Well, her school have just started, and I'm having my holidays soon. It's so hard to meet up. Nonetheless, I know, I'm going to see her real soon. haha.
I'm looking forward to my com being reformated! It keeps giving me problems. And i'm getting frustrated over it. Now, i'm on my sister's com, typing. so nice of her to offer. but, it's because, i need to do my case study. Ah well, thanks anyway.
Mid autumn festival is round the corner, sales of mooncakes everywhere. Now, my CC is having this function to celebrate this festival. It can be noisy at times. Dunno why must they blast the entire system. Even i living on the 11th storey, of a distance of about 400m from the community club, I'm able to hear every word that they are saying. Fortunately, i'm not in the midst of exams, And i jus found out that Kembangan has an approximate population of 20,000 people. Wow! What more places like Bedok, Tampines, Ang Mo Kio, Toa Payoh etc...? haha.
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The weekend is here. But, i'm not anticipating it at all. Why? Cos there's so much tasks to de done by weekend. Sigh.
In addition, i have to write a composition for one of my patients.Thought i can escape cos he's discharging today, but he said he'll look for me. Gosh, he really mean it. He said he can even come to my school n look for me. Scary. Mayb i should start writing stories to give him inspiration and let him edit my English. But i have to really sit down and think about he's topic. Cos i couldn't have an answer to that. And how can i start? Heard qte a lot from him. Learnt a few lessons too. Nice person to chat with, but it seems that I'm always scared of him. Feeling the uneasiness when we talked. And i think he had sensed that. opps. He reminds me of esther n mark. Unfortunately, i'm not willing to take the step forward. Nontheless, hope he'll get well soon.
Had 10 SDAs today. Sigh. However, most of it were done by Jen. I admired her. Sister knows about it and even helps us to do pre-op checklist. So i became the 2nd junior for the day. In fact, time passes so quickly that i think the amount of work i did today isn't enough. But the nurses here are very helpful. High D has only 1 patient, while the general ward is filled,they will come out n help us. The bond is there. Yeah. That's one thing i like about them.
This posting initally was quite tormenting. But now, it isn't so bad. At least, when u see them smile or even say a simple thank you. At least u feel that u're appreciated. that's the most important thing. Thanks Sam!
Sammie, kind of like the song u send me. The starting depicts the picture u had. Cool! Haha.. Love it. U haf the lyrics? hehe..
Case study, case study n more case study...
I miss NHC... I miss the nurses.. Sigh..
fOoTpRiNtS iN tHe SaNd
Monday, September 25
11:57 PM
Dun get upset with wad they say, pal. It's your right and they cant stop you from it.
Each have their own opinion, and obviously everybody cant agree with the same thing.
Ignore whatever they say, cos it wont b doing you any good. Dun let this affect ur studies. Dun let it affect ur temper either.
I'll still be by ur side.. And i'm sure ur bestie too.. Dun worry, they r people out there always supporting u. Cheer up, buddy!
Come to us if u need help. I'll always free to lend a listening ear. (:
fOoTpRiNtS iN tHe SaNd
Saturday, September 23
1:36 PM
One week have past, no more year 1's around.. No more people to depend on. Oh well... First few days was terrible. But i prayed for the best. And it did became better. Thank God. Haha.
Went to Bernie's house before our shift for lunch. She had whipped up some dishes for lunch. I enjoy her cooking. Whenever i'm at her place, I seemed to be eating more than usual.. The filipino style. It's not too bad. Best of all, i enjoyed her company. Cos we have always have our lunch, alone. Headed to hospital tgt. In the train, i saw qte a number of TKSians. I looked carefully, Chuan Rui with the other sec 4s. haha. He was qte a distance away, when i smsed him to tell him i'm behind him. Haha.. Didnt noe that ytd was their last day of prelims. And on that same train, i saw SN Chow. So coincidental. We talked. Bernie had made friends with Chow too. Didnt noe the junior nurses start work at 1.15pm.. Aww, not fair. Went back with bernie again. How good to have someone u noe to travel with u to work n back. Haha. She was qte exhausted n decided to take a cab home. So she gave me a ride. Thanks thanks! :)
Meeting Esther later. hehe. It seems that every Saturday, i'm going out with Esther. In the past, we used to go out every Saturday without fail. Now that she have to allocate her time for others (ahem*), and yet able to still go out with me, i'm glad enuff. Anyway, she have her weekdays to go out with them.
And i'm sure esther will b getting a scolding. She was out the entire night ytd till 12+pm today. I'm sure her mum will start nagging again. And worse of all, she went out with someone her parents dun want her to mix ard with. Haiz.. Naughty her. Was supposed to meet her at3 but bcos she reached home ard 12+,she needs to rest b4 meeting me. She's always the one who postpone our meeting time and I'm the one who decides the venue n time. Anyway, I'm used to it alrdy. That's her. *Laughs
fOoTpRiNtS iN tHe SaNd
Wednesday, September 20
11:43 PM
Worned out from attachment.
This posting is bad, real bad.
First day, eventful things happened.
Same goes on the second.
The Sister didnt even bother to spend time talking to us.
We briefly orientate us and immediately start work.
No other wards are like that.
Even so, the earliest we started work on orientation day would b ard 10.
It's not even 9.00 and here we are, starting work.
Awful!
That's not the main point.
We have been so clumsy.
Spilling milk, not professional enuff, dropping things..
Mistakes here and there.
Patients get so agitated.
Sigh..
Have been avoiding some patients after those accidents.
Hope they'll forgive us.
We saw some Heart Centre nurses today.
Tingting told me, whenever she sees them,
She feels like going over to them n hug them,
Though she dunno them.
Me too.
But from our past posting,
That's the impression engraved in us.
That day we went back to visit them,
I smsed Zul to tell him.
Haha, he asked if i went back cos i miss him.
In fact, i miss all of them.
My NHC patients too.
I love them all :)
Prelims are over. I hope both the A n O level students can do well!
Study hard n enjoy ur golden holidays soon after O's n A's!
Mum is coming back today.
Thankfully her flight is not delayed.
Things over at Bangkok isn't very good.
At least Mum is back now.
hehe, for the past few days, no naggings!
Woohoo.. Haha.. Opps
fOoTpRiNtS iN tHe SaNd
Saturday, September 16
11:41 PM
I'm so not going to Sakura (Somerset) with esther anymore.
Arghz..
I had enuff!
But i'm sure she enjoyed it.
Haha..
*jealous
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HAPPIE BIRTHDAY!!! Lost count of ur age already. Haha.. Opps.. Miss ya lots! Hope to meet up with u soon--->My dear Cookie =)
Ytd was my last day at NHC (National Hart Centre).
During this posting, we have learnt much. Beyond what was taught in school. Learning something new everyday. Our clinical instructors have gave us so much notes, and makes sure that we know some of it. Have been qte wll versed with cardiac drugs, myocardial infarction, ECG etc.. Can say that i put in quite a lot of effort in doing my case study too. Cos stayed back after work to do some research.
Enjoyed this posting very much. The staff at 47B are superbly nice. haha.. There are like one big family. And when we're in there, we felt that we are part of that family. Think I've enjoyed this posting the most. Though the ones at KK and 63C wasnt that bad.
We (Ting ting, Xin yi and I) had bought them a box of chocolates and also made them a card. So honoured to see the card we made put up in the board. But it wasnt very nicely made la. Can do better. haha.
Anyway gave one of my patient a get well soon card too! Hope to see him around my neighbourhood some day cos we stay in the same area.
We have a rich patient in our midst but dunno why want to stay in a B2 class ward. She owns a gold shop and offered to give us discount when we visit her shop. She always wanted to treat us to meals but we didnt accept. Until ytd, her family bought her noodles but she cant eat, so she gave it to me. I was qt reluctant at first. But even Sister was asking me to eat it too.. So i have no choice. Haha.. Anyway, a free dinner. Wasnt that bad after all. And not only one patient offers food to me, another one too. But i cant possibly eat both packets at a time right?
One the last two evenings, i made heart and cranes for the nurses using the rough papers they have. hehe.. Hope they'll like it. Zul told me he had kept my crane in his locker for good luck. Haha.. Aww...
Exchanged contacts with Mok n Zul. They are the most junior amongst all.Both graduated from NYP. Zul and us shared the same mentor. Mr Bernard Lian. Mok is soft spoken and kind. She looks the kind that will be pushed around. haha. But i didnt bully her at all!! =)
It's just one day, n i've started missing all of them. Haha.. Ridiculous.
They'll b spending the evening at Sentosa today. Cos of family day. Think Zul will be very very exhausted. He worked evening duty on Fri, and morning on Sat. And he didnt even sleep a wink from Fri night to Sat morning. And he's going to sentosa in the afternoon. Haha.. Wonder how is he going to survive.. Tsk tsk tsk..-shakes head-
Think Esther had enjoyed her posting too. Except for that scare she had ytd. Stop blaming yourself. Imagine if u werent there, it could be worsed. It's God's plan my dear. We're working in this line, and we're sure to encounter such things some day. Take it easy k?
K, I'm jealous, now she's going out with her staff nurse, Ronny. Hmph. haha..
Well, on my side some things didnt turn out too well. I've really pitied one patient. If not for her silly decision, it wouldn't have cost her her life. It's really not worth it at all. Sigh, but now things couldn't be changed. Whatever will be, will be.
Will be going out for buffet with Esther later. And I'm treating her. Haha. Sometimes it's better to give than to receive. Ermz, it seems that I've been doing that all my life. Nevermind, wanna make her happy.
fOoTpRiNtS iN tHe SaNd
Friday, September 8
10:34 PM
I've noticed something about attachment. Whenever i enjoy my posting to that ward, something touching always happen. haha. my nurses are nice and so are some of my patients.. i miss 25/2.. So sweet of her to hug me. aww... on the other hand, some r very fussy. but generally most of them r nice. Still can rmb one evening, one aunty was telling me n tingting abt life partners. Haha. Me n tingting were laughing all the way lar, cos of someone we saw. opps.. i really pity diabetic patients with gangrene. It can really become necrotic and turn foul smelling. Did on one of them twice. Gosh, i feel the pain for her. When ur tissues becomes necrotic,the doctors usually ask for an amputation to prevent a further spread. Aunty Tan going back. Finally.. Pari here n there... I really enjoy this posting.. But i kinda feel bad, cos i think i at times went a bit overboard. To think that they treat me so nice. Haiz..
Spent so much time doing case study, stayed back in MO's room to flip case sheets n do research. Argh. If only it's much simpler. Nvm, shall persevere.
Really learnt qte a lot of drugs here. Cardiac drugs to b precised, since it's a cardiac ward. Now can almost classify every drugs found in the IMR. Hehe. Study pharmacology n be a pharmacist? Tingting n polly were saying that they earned much more than nurses. Not too sure abt that cos they didnt tell us the pay. Nevertheless, being a pharmacist, u have to know so many drugs n catch up with times, cos there r always new drugs coming up. And the same drug can have many different names. eg, panadol aka acetaminophen aka paracetamol. yah.. see? but one is trade name, another is generic name. I admire pharmacist too. I was walking towards the ward when i saw this pharamcist. I query about renalvite cos i couldn't find it in the drug guide. She could simply tell me it's actions without much thought. She solved my ytd afternoon's problems. Haha.
Going to Jurong East swimming complex later! haha. Looking forward to it. Havent been exercising for a while. The last was walking/jogging from home to siglap to opera estate n along changi road then cutting thru kembangan private houses, then to home. Took me abt 1 hr plus. It's almost like walking to n fro from Kembangan to Bedok MRT station.
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Wednesday, September 6
12:31 AM
This posting is real good. Learnt much more things compared to the previous. There are qte a number of notes given and things that we need to read up. Well, unfortunately, next week i have to work alone. Sigh. Nvm, it's the last week anyway. Get to see telemetry. But the most fortunate thing is that my ward nurses are kind, caring and friendly, at least i'll enjoy my 3 wks of posting, compared to my friends in other wards, suffering.
Mei Li--> willing to teach. always there to help. i admire her cos she's pregnant n yet have to work so hard. still haf yet to find out who her husband is.. haha
Marities--> Didnt really talk much to her but she's always there to supervise. A filipino n yet a senior. Wow.
Xin Yue--> Another staff nurse that's pregnant. Kind and friendly.
Lena--> Knows her work well. Helpful and provides us with opportunities.
Devi--> The first staff nurse who says we're hardworking and wants to report it to our lecturer. Haha. Opps. Didnt really work much with her though.
Zul--> He's the man. haha. Opps. A few years our senior. The joker, the guy who had chicken pox three times.
Mok--> A junior. soft spoken. always putting a smile on her face.
Wang Zhen--> A PRC. Helpful. Inquistive.
Wonder who else have i left out. opps. The list goes on....
Finally get to talk to esther. It's been more than a week since i last talked to smsed her. Who ask her to reject my calls or rather, refused to pick them up. Hmph. Buttalked to her on th phone jus now. Got to hear abt C/S. They're a bit too much la. But wad can we do? the society is like that, full of kiasu. And yay!!! She's getting internet connection tmr. Be sure to add me on MSN hor. Haha..
Case study. It's hard to settle down on one. and i guess i'm going back to school on friday to do it. ahh..
was supposed to b asking germaine n yee leng out, but yee leng cant make it on friday. and i doubt i have any other days to spare. sigh. will meet up soon, if not yee leng will not forgive us (germaine n me) for wad we did to her the last time. Opps. haha...
Saturday, will be going out with church pals again. Hehehe.. To Jurong east swimming complex. Esther ever told me about it before though. About lazy pool and the slides. haha. Now, going to see for myself! I heard it's similar to Wild Wild Wet, jus that this is cheaper. Haha..Cool!! Whoever is going, confirm ur presence with me. 11am at Chinese Garden MRT control stn. (:
fOoTpRiNtS iN tHe SaNd
Monday, September 4
12:13 AM
Today's Kel's birthday! Happy birthday! Miss you lots.. Hope to meet up after ur exams soon! Haha.. Send my regards to Elaine too! =)
Didnt really blogged about my thoughts recently. There's qte a lot to say, but didnt want to share.
In the midst of attachment. Qte good. My ward nurses are seriously nice. My collegues can prove it too. Haha. I think my Sister is caring. Aww.. Ting ting will know what i mean. If only i have a friend like her. Haha.
Went to Comex to walk around. Didnt have anything in mind. More of a time of shoving and inching my way thru the bustling crowd. Haha. Reminds me of 2005 IT show. The Canon, Epson etc.. If only i can rewind back to those times. I dun mind going down a few more times then.
Jojo is becoming more like jerry. Haha.. Nice cousin to hang out with. Thanks for the Hougang chalet invitation.
I've been hanging out more frequently with my church friends now. Probably cos of meetings. Anyway, i find myself looking forward to church evry sunday. I dun mean in the past i dun. Just that now, it's much more. I enjoy fellowshipping with them. Talking about that, we (jeryl n i) just gave aunty judy a teachers' day gift. haha. Okay, she isnt really our teacher la. Cos that day while walking ard TM with her, that thought struck me. Since she's nice enuff to buy things for me. Hope she likes it! Haha. (:
It's getting late, and i think Kel is asking me to go to bed. Opps. Okay birthday boy, ur wish is granted! =)
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Sunday, September 3
11:03 PM
" The room was filled with friends and families, surrounding the patients' bed. All except one.. She hasnt got any visitors ever since the day she was being admitted. The nurse approached her, "is everything ok? if u need anything, do press the call bell." She gave a slight smile on her face and replied a thank you. The nurse sense something not quite right, but decided not to probe further.
After when the crowd went away, the nurse came in to check on her patients again. Her eyes was fixed at bed 5... The rest were asleep except for her. She sat with her knees crouching close to her body. She sat there thinking. The nurse walks towards her, "it's the wee hours of the morning, why arent you asleep. A penny for your thoughts?"
"What does a family means to you, missy?"
"Someone who cares and loves you.Kin that will understand and go thru thick n thin with you."
She muttured softly, " nobody cares..."
The nurse became more concerned. "Why did u say so?"
"Ever since I'm here, no one have visited."
Tears overwhelmed her eyes.
"My dad n mum barely bothers about me. They dote on my brothers better, probably cos i'm a girl. Each night, i'm asked to stay in the room to study. Whenever i'm studying, i can hear laughters and conversations from the rest of the family that are sitting outside in the living room. I felt so left out. But no one can comprehend. Whenever i tried to share with my friends about it, they are never free because they are always occupied with their own cliques. I'm left all alone and no one to turn to. I dun feel the love and care i deserve. Sometimes i think that i'm not even part of the family. I'm devastated."
The nurse wanted to help, but she was dumbfounded. She pats on her back, hoping that that will cheer her up somehow. The nurse tried to change her pessimistic thinking, but to no avail.
The nurse spent some quiet moments with her, and soon after, walks away. She sat at the nurses' counter pondering about the questions raised a while ago."What does a family means to you?"
In fact, she barely even know what it meant. Her family isn't as bad as her patient's. But the bond isn't there. Her family were just like tenants living with her. Just exchanged ocassional conversations. But most of the times were fights and quarrels.
She reflected.
Seeing the big groups of friends and families her patients have, made her feel guilty. "I want to cherish my family. I want to change things, but..." "
It sure takes lots of courage and determination to make a difference. What does family means to you? A friend ever asked me, "how much time in a day do u spend with them?"
A time to think and reflect upon...
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