Frustration. Anger. Irritation.
U name it, it's all there.
Nope. I dun perceived it as serious,
But u do!
U the terrible one do!
Everyone detest u, u noe?
But u jus take it ur way.
Why cant u understand.
Or even put yourself in our shoes?
Is it nice? It is fun?
U made me worried.
U made me sigh.
BP is high,
n so is my temprature.
How much u comprehend
the situation that happened?
U dun!
U werent even there to make a slightest comment!
We do not want u ard us.
Jus by ur presence,
U made us all STRESSED.
Oh, pls fly away,
Dun bother abt us.
We do not want to haf anything to do wif u.
So pls dun disturb us.
I'm sorry but I'm harsh,
But i cant help it,
cos it's all that u carved
anger in my heart.
Attachment was horrible, like wad the above mentioned. Ahh.. We all hate the CIs there. Well, dunno why. Jus came back from SHS, all these happened. She is the trouble of it all. I m mean, but I'm sorry. If THAT hadnt happen, i wont b doing this. U made me fill up that form which i think it is useless.. So wad m i supposed to do? It remids mi of an offense slip u noe. Well, i dun even think u noe wad i m doing. Okays, i admit i was CARELESS. I forgot.. Fine, but everyone forgets too right? Dun tell me u nvr did? Well, mayb u cn say forgetting is not an excuse. Blah blah. Negligence huh? Haiz. Pls la. He didnt even suffer any injury. U r in no right to comment anything either. I m at fault as i always m. Wif a slightest thing, dun u think i wont reflect? I feel remorseful. It is worse than u think. I dun even mind starving myself to death. Sometimes i think life isnt easy. The life that God gave to us, isnt easy to live on. So much troubles this world have. My patient told mi, "I'm so old, it's worthless for me to stay on...." I cant really console him much cos on the other hand, that's wad life is. We wait to die... Come to this world to suffer n die. The world is jus our temporal place. But of cos we cant end our lif e but let God tak over our lives. He is the ruler of it all. He understands wad we r feeling. He helps us in times of need. Well, everything that i came to reflect upon is ALWAYS my fault. The problems lies in me. So wad can i do? I dunno why this life is so unfair. I hate to say, all these causes negativity in me. Nobody understand how terrible it is. Except for God. I have nothing to say. Jus sadness n disappointment in myself. I cant get it right. It never will.
They r together!! I guessed it right. Hehex. Well, hope things turn out better. I dun want it to happen jus like wad happened to me. I'm jealous.
As i said, life is unfair. Everyone has wad they want but for me, i dun deserve anything good. I dun mind dying n be wif God, at least, I will live in gladness, unlike this world. The smiles i smiled were not genuine. Deep down in my heart there's always something bothering me. A cheerful person on the outside. God is my strength. I should cherish my life now. Usually we hav to learn it the hard way. Yes, it's HARD enuff for me to take it. Pls put an end to all these. Cos i can take it no more!
